I joined a long time ago, forgot the un ... so I made another account now.
I've been on again off again trying to diet for the past two to three years after putting on about 100 pounds within a short period of time. I just haven't been able to motivate myself into sticking with a diet. I think it's mostly because mentally I'm a hot mess and it's helped spiral me to this weight and other unhealthy habits.
But I recently found out I am type 2 diabetes, well at least I think I am because my glucose has been in the steady 300 range but haven't heard from the doctors yet. But I know I need a change now if I want to live to see my forties.
And I'm sick of the BS I get locally because of my weight. I'm sick of seeing clothes I love and not having them in my size, and the stuff that is made for my size looks ill fitting and crappy. Just sick of all this weight I waddle around and for once I want to be down to a normal size.
I'm just at a loss what to do. I'm highly addicted to sugary stuff (pop and sweets), and have crappy eating habits (binging near night time because I stay out all day and don't eat). I'm also a super picky eater and have never really eaten veggies, so when I toss out eating the bad stuff I really have nothing to eat. I'm also experiencing weirdness with my body as makes me ill now to eat most meats and dairy (even soy & coconut milk). I also have a problem going out to exercise, as I've pretty much been a shut in and my knees and back give me ****. Any recs for exercise video or exercise ideas that are targeted for my size range and limited mobility would be awesome.
I'm also worried my goal weight is ridic considering I'm essentially telling myself I have to lose 200 pounds. Is it better to have a smaller goal weight then keep up'ing it as you go along? Or is a bigger goal weight better?
Any help or advice would be much appreciated.


BACK! You'll find lots of support here! Here is a link to the challenge cleancowgirl mentioned: 