Hi Driven:
I want to start by giving you a big hug
and welcoming you to 3FCs!
I am also looking to lose 130 lbs. and I have also had problems with motivation.
Based on your medical history, I was wondering if you have been back to see your doctor recently. You may want to make sure there is nothing medically wrong.
It also sounds like you are overwhelmed by life, so the idea of losing a lot of weight feels even more overwhelming. That is my experience anyway. I am learning to be gentle with myself, get plenty of rest and to break down goals into small increments.
Instead of telling yourself that you need to lose 130 lbs., just tell yourself that you need to lose 5 lbs. or that you will eat healthy for one day.
Read some of the posts on this website. People talk about their struggles and successes. You will probably relate to a lot of people here.
We are all here for you! Please keep posting and let us know how you are doing.