Hello, and welcome

You've come to the right place for support.
My heart is with you on the loss of your mom. I haven't mentioned it here on the forums yet, but I lost my Dad, then my only sister who I considered my best friend as well, and then my mom... in quick succession, and also each one suddenly and unexpected. We were a very close family and to say I was traumatized is an understatement. I was already obese before my dad died, but these deaths pushed me into a whole other level of morbid obesity. I didn't care what I ate. I was just trying to get through the day. I am now 3 years out from losing my mom. About a year ago I started feeling more "normal." Emerging from heavy grief was like nerves regrowing; it was like waking up after a long sleep. I started living again, to put it simply. 5 months ago I started a new journey of diet and better health. Now my unhealthy outside is slowly but surely matching my joyful inside.
You can do this

One day, one meal, one pound at a time. We are here for you!