Curiosity, self-image, and determination
 

Hi there! I go by Sprinkles, I'm 21, 5'8 and I weigh 224! I don't have a super defined goal weight, but I know a partial goal is 170, and an absolute end goal is 140.

I feel like the big girl era of my life, while wonderful and important and beautiful, is over. Maybe because I'm graduating college in a few months, I feel like I want to evolve, change, and try something new. I want so desperatly to see what my body has to offer me, and I it.

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The Novel -

Let me unload just a bit of unusual on you.

Yes, I've been big my whole life, blame it on what you will. Of course, I've tried losing weight in the past.

But now? Now I'm my biggest, and miracle of all miracles, I love my body more than I ever have. Interestingly enough, it is that love that moves me in my 'quest'. As a plus size model, I've uncovered some things about the skin I live in that are intriguing to me. And you know what? I want to see more of what's underneath the padding! On many levels, curiosity and self-love are driving me. I'm hoping that that makes this time, the time that weight loss happens.

Oh, I have other motivations. In fact, I don't rank weight loss as my first goal, most of the time (there are moments I just want the whole process over with!) my other goals are creating a life-long foundation of wellness, staving off diabetes (which runs in my family), and improving my joint health (an iffy knee and a fear of 40-years-from-now-arthritis)

I've been slowly making quality (nutritious, not necessarily low-cal) food a priority for a few months, an' I've been working out at my gym for the last 2 weeks, now with a personal trainer. I'm making my goals small - the goal is the endorphin rush of exercise and the energy increase of healthy food, nothing more.

I'm not sure when I lost the weight or if I really lost it. All I know, is, sometime in winter of last year I weighed 237 at the doctors office. Last week, I weighed in at 224. I'm not sure what to believe though, because I just weighed in on a different scale (both high-quality medical) and weighed in at 231. My weight has always fluctuated drastically day-by-day...So I'm not really 'counting' it until I notice a change in my body.

I need this, I feel like I've gone through so many positive experiences and growth and I want to change my body in accordance with the change in myself. Hopefully the key this time will be love, not hate.

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My mother and I.

Hello, you sound like you are incredibly motivated to make a change. :)

Good luck on your journey!!

It's so refreshing to see someone make this journey with a positive frame of mind. Best of luck! and I find it's all the small changes now that will help you see the big changes in a few months time.

Welcome and good luck on your journey!!