When I was little I was very fit. I spent my summers running around my small town, high in the mountains only taking breaks when my parents forced me to. Five hours per day at the swimming pool, four hours playing, one hour of lessons. In fact, one summer none of the neighborhood parents could drive us to the pool, in a town ten miles away for our lessons so we hopped on our bikes and got ourselves there. In a five minute bike ride from our house we could explore a giant ravine or get lost in a 10 square mile area covered in volcanic boulders.
Eventually I had to move to the city, and I became the victim of merciless bullying that went on for three years. I think it was because I was from a single parent family, living in a two bedroom apartment in the sketchy part of town. But we went to a wealthy school. I was the poor kid going to a rich school. I shopped second hand, which gave me fashions five or six years old. I had no friends from 6-9 grade. I comforted myself in schoolwork.
In the middle of 8th grade I got dropped out of the gifted program. Why? The only reason I can think of, and the more I learn, the more convinced I am right is that I was a poor kid. Can't have one poor kid bucking all the research saying they don't stand a chance, can we? I comforted myself with brownies and Doritos.
Ten years later. I actually keep a notebook of all the things that kids said to me during those three years. Yeah, I kept a notebook, and I can't bring myself to throw it away. I've tried. But I always go dumpster diving before garbage day. When I'm feeling depressed I read the stupid thing. I really should get rid of that.
Anyway, I graduated summa cum laude from college, I have a successful career, and it's time for a change. I've been overweight since I was 13. I've never been skinny, or even fit always the fat one.
As of right now, I've never been on a date that I did not initiate or was set up on, which is weird in my more traditional culture (small town LDS), oh and I'm 25 years old and I have high blood pressure. I need to do this for my health, I need to do this for my self esteem, and I need to do this for me.