Took me years to get here, I know I won't lose my weight over night
Hi, I made an account over 1 1/2 years ago, I was 160 then standing at 5'2". I started to lose weight then, lost about 5 lbs then quit. Well two months ago I realized I would never allow anyone to take full body pictures of me, until mid November on my sons birthday. When I looked at my picture I was mortified at what I saw. I didn't really think I was that big, but pictures don't lie, well at least not the untouched ones. I started that weekend with mild exercises kicking up little by little. I cut down on all the baking I enjoy doing, plus started making healthier meals. I also added chia seeds for the fiber and coconut oil cause it speeds metabolism, from what I read. I went from around 153 to 140. This week has been a tough one because I have not seen any weight loss. Infact I gained a pound. I was so happy when I had hit 139 last week, thinking I finally weight 1 lbs less than I had lied and written on my license.
In 2006 I weighed myself and had hit 185, I started that day going to the gym everyday, mostly walked on the treadmill at the highest incline. I ate only chicken breast, veggies, salads with dressing and sandwiches. I had quit soda, juice and alcohol. I had a cheat day every saturday.Within 11 weeks I had gotten down to 126. I thought it was nuts. Maybe it was cause I was in my 20's and used to workout before. Also should add i was diagnosed with depression and was on wellbutrin, which is also used as a weight loss aid, off label.I then moved and changed jobs, went from a physically demanding job to a desk. Plus the gym I had a contract with was not near me. I couldnt afford another membership. I slowly started gaining weight. By 2008 I was about 185 again. I got pregnant and at the suggestion of my doctor ate small meals every 2 hours because I was so nauseous. Well because of that after having my son a week later I was 160 lbs. I think it's not often a woman loses weight during pregnancy. My son was almost 9 lbs and perfectly healthy.
I notice I avoid events because when I try and find something to wear i hate the way I look. My friends invite me out and I look for excuses to avoid going.My poor kids don't get to go to the beach or water parks because I refuse to wear a bathing suit or even shorts. I wear big sweaters mostly, I don't bother buying new clothes.
I am tired of feeling this way. I know that when I previously lost weight I felt confident. But I also know that I can't get to my goal weight and lose focus, I need to change my lifestyle forever. I need to keep active forever.
I just need support from u gals, I know reading your stories and seeing u reach your goals will keep me motivated. I love seeing your before and after pics. Any tips would be greatly apreieacted. I am setting mini goals for myself. I am at my first at 140. My next one is 135, then 130 after that I will decide if I think I need to keep going. From high school until age of 24 weighed 118. But at 27 when I lost weight and ended at 126 I was actually thinner than in high school. So I figure I will just see where I feel comfortable after I hit 130.
Hope that wasn't too boring. I just needed to tell someone my story.
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