Well, I have not been on here for years..I used to be under the user name Misden..but that was before the divorce..before my mom passed away..and before I was raising 2 teenage girls.
This place has changed alot and it will take days for me to navigate through it all
So..a little about my hitting rock bottom....
Went to an amusement park yesterday with some friends..mind you I am 41...and as we got on a Roller Coaster and my anxiety was already very high...you guessed it..the bar would not come down over my belly
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well..it turned out the lady came over and clicked it down twice, and although i was sitting there with like a stuffed sausage, while my male companion just did not know know what to say..I was MORTIFIED!!
So the rest of the day..although I would have overcame my fear of heights and my panic attacks..I did not attempt to ride anything else for fear of getting kicked off for being too BIG.
So..now I know why I am single..and my life is spiraling out of control--need to get on track..and get healthy!! I do not know how this will work out--but here I am!!