Hey Ya'll
 

Hi there. New to the forum. Actually, I made this account about 3 months ago, then just let it sit untouched for a while. That's really how my view of my weight loss has been lately. I worry about it for a couple days, complain about it, and just kind of hope that my worrying about it will magically make the pounds disappear (not working).
I'm 31, i've had weight problems all my life. I've been as small as a size 14, and as large as a size 28. I'm a size 22 right now, and those jeans are getting really tight. I'm a single mom. I work about 60+ hours a week. And I'm a General Manager of a restuarant, so I'm around my mortal enemy/best friend (food) all day. I'm surrounded by fresh veggies and healthy proteins, as well as induglents carbs. But, it's a restaurant, not like I have time to eat 6 tiny healthy meals all day, **** sometimes I'm lucky if I have time to shove the nearest piece of bread in my mouth. And then there is exercising, I have time. But I use the excuse that I'm soooo tired. And yes, I know I wouldn't be so tired if I got some of this weight off of me. I know that when I go to the gym on a regular basis I am a much happier person. I know that when I am not carrying around 100 extra pounds on my body that I love myself and my life more. But I have this mental block to do anything that makes me look//feel better. Does anyone else have this problem? I know exaclty what I need to do to make things better, but it's like I don't want to.
It's gotten so bad recently that I have been sabotaging my relationship with my boyfriend. Being overly mean to him, and in the back of my mind I know it's because when I've lost large amounts of weight, it's always after a serious heart wrenching break up. In my mind I think if I can push him away, he will break up with me and I will be so upset I will turn to the gym and weight loss for comfort. (seriously twisted way of thinking isn't it?!?!). I don't understand my own mind. I don't know why I can not fathom being truly happy in all aspects of my life at the same time.

Welcome and good luck ! You say you work in a restaurant and are around food all day and are too busy to eat. What do you think stay at home moms with a hubby and a couple of little kid do, they are around food all day and are usually the chief cook. We can all find an excuse if we want one.

Hi Nevada! Newbie here too. Let's whip this weight problem once and for all! Hugs, Wolfie

Hey Nevada! I have done some of the same things. Diet/lose, eat/gain, work out regularly then stop. Sabbatage relationships or cling to bad ones. Dangerous cycle.

In my opinion...and it is just that, one person's opinion. You have some depression issues going on. Been there myself. Talk to your doctor. I know when I stay on my anti-depressant I am able to stick to a diet and feel like exercising. Right now the exercise is a no go...knee surgery coming up on Monday. Then I hope I will be able to get going at the gym!!

Welcome! Good luck!!!

Welcome! I am returning returning and returning user. I have set a plan to stick to this time. Good luck, I believe in you!

Thanks for the warm welcome everyone. Kate, i have had more than one person close to me suggest that I should talk to my doctor about depression. I actually have made an appointment to see him, but I have a fear of becoming dependant on a pill. I've always been of the mindset that people should just "put their big kid pants on, and keep going", but sometimes I guess you need a little help along the way? I'm going to keep an open mind about it and have an open discussion with my doc. If he doesn't think I need depression medication, at the very least maybe he can point me in the right direction of a weight loss program.
thanks again to everyone. Looking forward to having some real support along the way :)

Hey Nevada, don't be too tough on yourself. You have made a huge leap by joining this site. There are some amazing and inspirational ladies and gents whose blogs and posts you can read. Many of whom were in the same head space as you when they started on their journey to a healthier lifestyle!

I know it's helping me!
Hope to track your journey with you.