3 Fat Chicks on a Diet Weight Loss Community

Hi, my name is Emily and I'm 20 years old. I've recently started to exercise and watch what I eat after about 8 months of not doing so. So... about one and a half years ago I lost around 60 pounds. It came a surprise to me because I didn't try to lose weight I just started eating a strict vegan diet (for the animals!) and one day while getting dressed, I realized all my clothes were falling off my body (I think around 3 or 4 months after going vegan). It was a nice surprise! I stepped on the scale and saw I had lost about 30 pounds; it was amazing. That encouraged me to start exercising so I started doing the 30 Day Shred with my mom but stopped after about 10 days because I HATED it. I began to run on the treadmill everyday for 45 minutes and before I knew it I was at a total of 60 pounds lost. Even so, I still thought I was extremely overweight (even though I weighed 150 at 5'6"). Well, in August 2011 I moved across the country to Portland, Oregon to transfer to a new college. I still ate strictly vegan because my roommate was vegan as well. I didn't exercise but my roommate and I walked around a lot exploring our new surroundings. About 3 months after I moved here I met my boyfriend, who is not vegan... And then began the many months of sitting on my butt watching movies and eating chips and chocolates and all things NOT VEGAN. So here I am now, I've probably gained back 25 pounds but I'm not really sure. I can't weigh myself so I'm not sure of my exact weight. I have tried to weigh myself and I want to weigh myself but I start crying and totally freaking out when I look at the scale (even just thinking about weighing myself I can't breath and I'm starting to cry). This is something I would like to get over, but I keep putting it off until I lose more inches. Looking back at photographs, I now realize how thin I was and how fat I've become (AGAIN, UGH). About a month ago I got a mat and some weights and I'm doing the 30 Day Shred once more (until I can save up for a treadmill). I'm definitely noticing changes in my body, which is nice! I've lost a couple inches around my tummy, which is my biggest problem (besides my thighs). I am still struggling with my eating but it has gotten better and I am eating more fruits and veggies again. I have gone back to being vegan, and my boyfriend is going vegan too (since yesterday) and I'm really getting my life back on track. I want to be happy with how I look and hopefully this forum can help me with that! Sorry for the crazy long introduction :o
I'm glad that I found this forum! :)