3 Fat Chicks on a Diet Weight Loss Community

Hey all,

Just a quick note to say hello. I have been a member and a lurker for sometime now, but am starting a program tomorrow and thought I should introduce myself. My weight loss program will consist of delivered fresh foods from Rose Riseman Gourmet and a combination of dog walking/swimming/Px90. I have begun to see my behavior as addictive, self destructive and compulsive to have been receiving treatment from a psychologist for the underlying issues which seem to derail me like a hellish undertow.

By way of background, I gained roughly 200 pounds from approximately age 20 - 28. A lot transpired during that time, including law school, my first couple of years of practice and the suicide of my mother. I used food (as I do other things) to regulate uncomfortable emotions which I have not fully taught myself to regulate in more healthful ways.

My high weigh is 365 and current weight is 318. I lost 80 pounds from my high over 6 years ago and got lulled into a false sense of security and allowed what I wanted right then to eclipse what I really wanted. I regained 47 of those pounds and have made very little consistent progress since that time.

I am a 36 year old who planned to embark on IVF treatment in September secondary to infertility issues. I saw a perinatologist on Friday who advised me that my blood pressure was at an extreme level - putting me at high risk for a stroke and she would not advise starting treatment until I am under 200 pounds. Given my age, time is of the essence and my life requirements and health have reached a point where I simply cannot put this off any longer. I am so inspired by many of the posts I see here and looking forward to learning from you all. I have had pockets of sanity where I truly appreciate the joys of healthful food, physical activity and the peace which comes from control and balance. I know I can get there again.