Hi, I'm Shiloh. And I'm a fat chick (hi Shiloh) lol It actually feels good to confess it. I even put a real picture as my avatar. Unlike my pics on FB where I have trained myself to shoot from above and to the side at odd impossible angles to make it look like I have a jawline still
I've been overweight for a little over 10 years now. Sadly I always thought I was fat when I was in high school, because I was a size 12 and all my friends were a size 6. Who cares that I was a few inches taller than them and much more muscular. In my mind I saw myself as huge. And now I actually am
I've only really dieted once before, using (a brand name of shake that isn't bought in grocery stores which isn't to be named), which I thought was great. I felt great and I lost 30 pounds in 3 months. And then I couldn't afford it anymore and I gained it all back in half the amount of time. This time I want to lose weight eating real food. For me its the only way. I need to come to terms with food and change my relationship with food. I think I've finally gotten to a place in my life where I can't pretend like food is a comfort to beyond the 3 seconds that its in my mouth. I'm lethargic and I don't like looking at myself anymore. I don't recognize myself anymore. This isn't me.
I'm a single mom of 2 boys and I want to have the energy to keep up with them when they get older. I don't want diabetes like my dad has. I don't want arthritis and a lifetime of yo-yo dieting like my mom does. I want to go skydiving and ziplining. Something I can't do at my present weight. I want to run and dance and feel really alive.
And I will.
My plan is to eat healthy. Pretty obvious right? It's simple yet difficult, especially with 2 kids. I'm thinking an Eat to Live/Mediterranean Diet combo. Nothing strict or specific to follow. I can't handle that. I get frustrated when I'm limited or have restrictions. So the basics of my eating plan are whole foods. Lots of green smoothies. A little bit of chicken and fish. Almost never red meat (which is easy, I only recently started eating meat again after four years as a sad excuse of a vegetarian living off of mac n cheese and cheese pizza. yes I noticed the prominence of cheese there lol).
For exercise, I plan to do a lot of hiking. Thankfully I love hiking and have done enough not quite consistently that its enjoyable. I'm still out of shape, but not nearly as bad as I could be. I also want to buy a bike soon so I can go riding with my boys. And I bought zumba dvd's which looks like so much fun, but I've been too embarrassed to really try. Even at home alone lol I'm embarrassed of myself, how sad is that?
So that's me, sorry if this was long. It was like my official starting confession and I needed to say it out loud, so to speak. I'm hoping this is a place that I can go for support and encouragement.
Good luck everyone on your goals!