This HAS to be it!
 

Hello Everyone.

My name is Jessi. Born and raised in Nebraska. I'll be twenty in just a couple weeks. I'm as independent as they come, been on my own since I was 16, have a great man, awesome friends and a wonderful family. I've always been in control of my life.

The only thing I can't seem to control is my weight. Weight has been an issue all my life. Nobody in my family is small. I currently weigh 252 lbs. I'm far from happy. I haven't been this heavy since eight grade. I'm so disgusted with myself I can't even look in the mirror, and I HATE being touched much anymore. I feel gross.

It's been a tough time in my life. Last August I found out I was pregnant, but ended up losing my baby four monthes into the pregnancy. I did a lot of emotional eating afterwards gaining twenty pounds. I moved into a new place in April, hoping to "start fresh" but I found that much harder to do, because as my "due date" approached I did a whole lot more emotional eating, and didnt know how to stop. And here I am today, unhappy and wanting change.

I joined a gym on Thursday. My brother is a fitness nut, he gave me some fat burning pills to kick off. And i'm thinking about also trying Alli.

My problem is, I have NO support. My boyfriend has lost over a hundred pounds, eating hot dogs, donuts and pizza. My dad lost weight when he found out he was diabetic. My mom, my sisters, aunts, cousins, friends, any other female in my life, doesn't want better and is no encouaragement or support to me, if anything they try to bring me down moreso. I don't have much male support in my life. Just my boyfriend, brother and dad. And none of them have any problems with weight.

It's been a big issue in my family for as long as I can remember. And Starting Monday, I'm BREAKING THIS CHAIN! (Tomorrow is fathers day so its a big family get together, not a good day to start.) I just want to be happy again, to be able to look at myself in the mirror, to smile and feel beautiful.

<3 I CAN DO THIS!

Welcome to 3FC!

I'm so sorry for your loss :hug:

Every day is a good day to start. And today is actually the always the BEST day to start.

You know what works? Watching your food intake, and moving more.

Eating fewer calories than you spend. (Calories in vs calories out) It takes time, patience, persistence... but it's well worth it. If you take a look down at the Maintainer's area you'll see that they're still here. Being mindful, moving more, eating healthfully. They all got there in slightly different ways, but they're there now. And we're all here... supporting each other through the thick and thin. We want to see every member (including ourselves) reach our goals.

Make a food plan. It doesn't have to be complicated. It could be as simple as figuring out what your daily calories should be and then sticking to the number. It can be as simple as eating the same foods, but cutting all the portions in half. It can be as simple as cutting out all drinks except for water, and making sure to eat five veg and fruits a day.

The only thing that matters is that you start. It can begin small. Then build it up over time.

You're absolutely right. You can do this. :yes: