I lost 110 lbs starting in July of '06, by counting calories and prayer for self control.
My husband died last September and for the last week or so I have started Binging, compulsive overeating and bulimia. I have never had bulimia before.Making myself throw up is just so disgusting but I'm afraid I will gain it all back. But more than this is the feeling of not having self control.
I just can't stop this behavior. Every night I tell myself tomorrow will be better.
I don't know what to do next..I'm beginning to really hate myself!
I'm very grateful to find you all...

Welcome to 3FC

I'm so sorry for your loss.

There's a Chicks in Control area where you'll be able to find out a little more information on eating disorders like bulimia, and where you can find others who are learning to manage their eating disorders one day at a time.

However, my concern for your situation means that I have to strongly urge you to speak to a professional. Not only to help you with your loss, but to point you in the right direction during this time and hopefully aid you towards building healthier behaviors in regards to food.

I have been thinking that I should see my shrink too.
I have Bipolar disorder that is controlled with meds and I just don't want to have him change anything...
I will check out Chicks in Control.Thanks so much for answering me. This is a wonderful site...