I wanted to introduce myself. My name is Liz. I have lost over 100lbs and managed to keep it off for over 4 years. By I have since lost my desire to stick with it. I have gained about 15lbs since January and I'm terrified of regaining all the weight I lost.
I don't know what's wrong with me. I know what to do in my head, but everyday I seem to tell myself the same thing - I'll start again tomorrow. Thank goodness for exercise otherwise I'd weigh more than I do now.
I hate that everything I own is tight, but I refuse to buy fat clothes again. I hate the way I look, I'm not motivated, and generally depressed, (not just about weight loss). I feel like I don't know where I want my life to take me and because of it, I've gone on this downward spiral.
Life seemed much easier when I was fat. People had less expectations of me. I had less expectations of myself. Now I feel like a failure for gaining 15 lbs. While I could accept the gain and move on if I could find whatever it was that got me to lose the weight the first time, it's the fact that I can't get back into the swing of things.
That wasn't much of an introduction, but I am hoping to come here for support and to help others.
Thanks for listening.
Liz
