So ready!
Ok,here goes. I love food and I love to eat. I have no self control. I am 5'1 150 lbs and so sick of how I feel and look. I have not always been over weight. I have 5 children ages 25 to 7 and this weight has nothing to do with them. It is the bad choices I have made and the just ignoring that voice that says "put that down". My father is very overweight and it scares me to see all of his health problems that have resulted from being overweight. I am his caretaker and it has taken a toll on my health, my family and my marriage. I am so afraid of ending up like him and the last thing that I want is for my own children to spend their life taking care of me. I love my father and I would do anything for him, it's just difficult because all of my time is centered around his health. I have just let myself go and it's my own fault. I just got laid off from my job of 3 years a few weeks ago, it has been a real wake up call to me to start over. I am 42 and I am finding out that age is a factor when you are applying for jobs. I do not care what people say it is true, the other hard part has been trying to find something to wear to go job hunting. I look pregnant in everything. I have been in tears this past week. I have tried on every shaper known to man just to try and find something that will push that darn extra large muffin top down, nothing works! I am tired of feeling so bad about myself and not having any energy. I just want to get healthy, looking better is a plus. I really needed this vent bad. I hope this is ok for an intro. I am just very frustrated at the moment!
Jen
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