Hey
 

So... yeah, hello! I am crap at these kinds of things!!!

I want/need to lose weight basically, hence being here, but more than anything else I want to be healthy and do it in a healthy, long-term way. That has to be the most important thing for me, I've had a pretty long history of eating disorders pf every possible kind you could think of... Although I consider myself to be recovered from everthing, I still have this need to eat all the time which has become more of a habit/addiction than anything else, which along with a cocktail of weight increasing psych meds have made me gain weight to the point that I'm now obese, which isn't that great from any angle <_<

I've been trying pretty unsucessfully since the summer to lose weight, I did pretty well for a month or so, lost a stone through swimming most days and counting calories, but it all went wrong over a bad bout of depression and inactivity and eating constantly.

I guess Christmas isn't the best time to start making changes, but tomorrow never comes so why wait?

xxx