Hi, everyone! Well, this is maybe my millionth time saying, "I am going to lose weight this time!" Honestly, I've gotten to the point where I don't trust myself to stay motivated. I'm 20 years old, in college, 5'2" and ~175 pounds, and I'd like to get between 120 and 130, which is where I was about five years ago.
My biggest and most challenging goal is to learn to love my body all the time. Even when I was at a healthy weight, I completely hated the way I looked and thought I was fat. My weight doesn't come from the foods I eat or complete lack of exercise, but from binges brought on by depression and anxiety and occasional weeks of sedentary lifestyle. I feel like I'm trapped in this vicious circle of self-hatred due to weight and weight due to self hatred. And I have no idea how to break it.


