3 Fat Chicks on a Diet Weight Loss Community

Hi so my names Amanda. I've never had to worry much about my weight. I mean I'm only 22 and i've never been REAL skinny but never fat either. After having my first child 1 year ago though, I find myself constantly thinking about my weight. Before I got pregnant I weighed 170 at the most and now at this moment I weight 218. at my peak i weighed 235. I started drinking a shake for breakfast and a little lean cuisine for lunch and walking ALOT to lose the 17 lb's in less than 1/2 a month. It's just so much work and I feel like im constantly thinking about food and depriving myself. But i had being this big. I dont even like to look in the mirror or when ppl take my picture I dont even recodnize myself I look so huge. I feel like this isnt even me. I just want to lose this weight and be myself again. not to mention im a single mom and im never gonna get into the dating scene again if I cant even look at myself, how are others suppost to?! I gotta do this now or in 50 yrs im gonna be looking back asking myself, "what if?" Who could I have met, what better mom could i have been, how much more just HAPPIER i would of been in general. I have to do this!!!