| Carmichael |
10-24-2010 04:00 PM |
Will to Change
Hi, my name is Aaron and I’m in serious need of support. I know this site if mainly targeted at women, but I’m hoping I can find a spot within it. I’m a male, 5’10”, and weight about 230lbs. Now that you have the general idea, I’ll start from the beginning. As a child I was a normal weight, but suffered from a digestive disease. The disease caused a lack of ganglion cells in my colon, which resulted in bowel obstructions. I would go months without going to the bathroom and it got so bad that I couldn’t eat without pain, had constant nausea, and I would look like one of those poor African kids with a giant bloated belly. We would repeat the process of going to the hospital to be physically dug out, filled with enemas, gulp down mineral oil, and be told it was all behavioral. Finally in my junior year of high school a doctor diagnosed me with hirshsprung’s disease. I was cleaned out for the last time and sent off to get a colostomy bag. For the first time in my life I could eat without feeling like I would die. Oh boy did I eat…and eat. A year and 80lbs+ later I had my colostomy bag removed, my intestines fixed, and everything was finally normal. Two years later I’m even heavier and miserable.
So that’s how it all happened.
I know what my life could be like if I just made the commitment to change. But as of right now, my life is pretty sad. I’m almost 21 years old and I have no real friends, work for a pizza joint, and attend a pitiful technical college. Back in July/August I was down to 219lbs and felt great, but I only kept up my changes for about a month and everything fell apart. Blah, that’s enough about the depressing tale I make my life to be. I’m here because I want…need to change. I look forward to receiving/giving support and meeting everyone.
Tomorrow is the beginning of my new life.
P.S: I’m usually not this negative, so apologies to anyone who reads this. :)
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