Tukita: First of all:
I'm new too but I've already found loads of support and help both by reading through the boards and also talking with many of the wonderful ladies here!
I wanted to write because I struggle/ed with BED (Binge Eating Disorder) for several years. There is a difference between bingeing here and there and having and Eating Disorder. The hardest part for me was admitting it. I read some great books about BED such as
Eating in the Light of the Moon. Being a Christian I also went to a Christian therapist (after a while) ... the most beneficial thing for me was realizing God loves me, thinks I'm beautiful, adopted me as a daughter ... Even when I binge He's not disgusted with me, but he's disgusted with the action because it's destroying me.
I got to a point where I would binge, get ready to beat myself up and stop. I would say you know what I just ate enough food for three days, but that doesn't change the fact that I am valuable. Then when I started to feel like I would binge, I realized the value that I was and I thought, "Hey I don't want to do this to myself."
Another big thing for me was learning to deal with the emotions that was causing me to binge ... instead of eating because I was angry/hurt/frustrated ... I learned to go and talk with the person or to journal it ... not easy because I'm a people pleaser!
I write all this to say there are loads of people here who will help you out, support you, and understand you!
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