Well, today is the first Tuesday in June. And so it begins........
I have never been thin. Well, okay, maybe when I was 4? Not in my memory has there ever been a time where I was comfortable or completely happy with my body. This is my journy to get there. Not only to thin-ville but to happy-town with myself. Not only am I going to guage my happiness by what I see in the mirror or the number on the tag of my pants but by how I perceive my body in my mind. How I FEEL about my body. Time to get real.
5'10" 152lbs
Goal - 140lbs and have a flatter tummy. I am sick of having muffin top and my answer to that is not bigger pants. So there. Trip to Hawaii in November and I really want to wear a bikini and look and feel fantastic. Not like I want to hide or cover my tummy with something.
So how do I do this? I am not sure, which is why I have never been thin. I think.
Here's what I am going to try. Complete honesty. None of you here know me so I have nothing to lose.
Today is good so far. Protien shake with soy milk, strawberries and 1/2 banana. 2 bites of my son's pancake. Coffee with soy milk. Bite of chocolate that dear husband brought me and then I spit it out in the garbage. SPIT IT OUT!!!!!!!! Was not good chocolate but believe me when I say that that would never have stopped me in the past.
Ugh. This will be tough.
Supposed to be, isn't it?
If you are reading this - I really need support and encouragement. Any thoughts and comments are appreciated.



