Reborn
 

hi
so I have been gone a very long time, but this is a new intro.
Its been over a year at least since I have been here but I'm starting anew.
I am in college now, I was in HS when I was here.
I have been dating a boy for 2 years and 4 months now, and we are pretty happy together.
I am going to be a teacher. I am supposed to be a senior in high school but I am going to be a junior in college this fall, so I need to slow down lol.

I still kinda struggle with my weight. I fell off the diet bandwagon when I met John because I was only dieting to get skinny so boys would like me, it was nothing having to do with health. Well John was prayers awnsered. He is amazing and I love him so much.

John has made me so happy with myself I didn't care about dieting, he even liked me because I was fat. A type of man my previous depressed teenage self never could have imagined.

But now I want to lose weight not for vanity reasons so much like before but because I am an adult and I care about being healthy. My family is all over weight and my dad almost gained diabetes because of it. Since he has lost weight is less at risk for diabetes and I am so proud of him.

I realized I don't want my weight to be my downfall. I like going outdoors and taking hiking adventures, and sometimes my weight gets in the way.
I would also like to lose weight for personal reasons. Just because I want to.

John has a little bit of a problem with it. He's afraid of me losing my zany fun personality and becoming a stereotypical mean girl. But I know I won't and he should know me better than that by now. John and I are also about to hit a rough patch. I have to go home for the summer for 3 months while he lives up here with his parents. We prob wont see each other for 3 months other than webcams. I am going to lose weight and if he doesn't like it well I don't care. He can break up with me and tell his family he broke up with me cause I wasn't fat anymore and see how it goes down with them.

But I'm not anticipating that to happen. We love each other very much and while he won't be supportive of my weight loss, I know he still loves me. Sounds twisted I know, but I have to see where God takes us. John has helped me to grow in so many ways. I am such a strong Christian and different person because of him. I'm not ready to let us go.

I am currently 202.8 pounds and ultimately want to lose 72-75 lbs. With everyones help here I can do this!

Hi vouge09!

I'm glad to hear you have found a guy who loves you and has helped you change for the better. :) But don't let him hold you back from being healthier? Look at it as a health transplant and not a personality transplant -- you will still be *you* when you are 70 pounds less!
Does your boyfriend like doing stuff outdoors and so on? If so, this will be a great chance for you to do more things together when you have lost some weight.
I'll be praying for you!!! We can do it!

Thanks Prayers are always always welcome. Strongest too.

I don't think of it as a personality transplant, he's just being a stupid boy. lol.

He doesn't like outdoorsy stuff, but most of the time when I get him outside he has fun. He's just not so much adventureas as I may be.

Hi Vouge, welcome back! Sometimes guys are worried that if you lose weight, you'll be putting yourself "on the market" and that someone else will come along and take you away from them. If he knows you, he knows that you won't change personalities. He may be afraid that with your great personality and a hot smokin' body with it that you'll be harder to hold onto. But you can't let his fears stop you, and he'll see. You'll be able to prove to him that it's okay. I think it is so great that at your young age you are taking control of your weight now. So many here wish they had done that, so good for you! Good luck!

I think it is partly what you said. He's going to have to deal with guys hitting on me more, (Yes it happens even with me being fat) and I caring about what I eat. It's a big change for us, but he'll be okay. The thing about John is that, he always wants the best for me. He will sacrifice anything just so I am happy. Thats part of why I love him so. I'm going to do what I want and let God take me on this journey. I know it's wrong I have stalled telling him I am on a diet now, but I will when I think the time is right.

Today has been difficult, I have eaten plenty for sure but I still feel hungry. I think it might be a little bit of a mental thing. I've stayed on it though!

Welcome back!!!

Welcome! Be sure to check out the Faith Support subforum.

I'm glad you are thinking about your health and I'm sure your boyfriend will be supportive of that. And I'm glad that you are going forth with or without that support. Men who really love us want what is best for us, and that is health and longevity and energy. Good luck!

Thanks so much everyone! I know this place is the key to my success.