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Hi my name's Stiney, I'm 28 and I've decided today to STOP sabotaging my life and lose the rest of my weight that I need to.
The last time I was thin was when I was 16 years old. Since then I've balloon from 140 up to 280. 3 years ago after a break up and going back to school I noticed that I'd lost a little bit of weight. Instead of ignoring it I hit the situation full on and over the course of a year with ALOT of exercise and alot less food I dropped down to 190. I was so happy and on the right track to being smaller than I'd been in over 10 years when I started a night job. Unfortunately having money and a job at night caused me to gain weight. I stopped eating correctly and stopped exercising. I went back up to 215.
Last year I started Weight Watchers when I moved to a new city and got back down to 194. After losing the weight again, my partner moved in with me and we both LOVE food. So a year later here I am at 230.
Over the course of this year I would say to myself "Oh well as long as I don't go over such and such weight." And all that would do was give me leeway to gain weight "as long as I didn't go over a certain weight". Well I'm done with that. Starting right now 230 is my LIMIT I will not go over it and I'm going to get myself to 180 then see how I feel about going further down to 150 or so.
I was part of a weight loss group when I lost the bulk of my weight before but just like everything else I dropped it when I started gaining.
But from now on the only think I will be dropping is food that's bad for me and my excess weight.

Stopping that self-sabotage is tough! But you can do it! I'm finally getting on the right track, too. You'll meet a lot of very inspirational people here. I'm not one of them yet, mind you ;)

Welcome to 3FC!

Amanda

Welcome aboard and good luck

Welcome!!! :goodluck:

Welcome, Stiney! ;)

Thanks everyone for the welcome. :D :hug:
Last night wasn't so great BUT not as bad as it could have been. We were busy building pride floats in the pitch black and the boys with their no weight issues decided to order pizza and pasta from Pizza Hut. I had 2 pieces of pizza and a couple spoonfuls of the pasta. It's alright though. I realized when I get angry at myself all it makes me want to do is eat more. Over the last month I've stopped my horrible negative talk and it's pretty much the one month I haven't gained any weight. I didn't lose but I stayed the same and that's most definitely a HUGE step in the right direction.