[valerielynn]

I am 37 years old and have progressively continued to gain weight over the past 12 years, I go on diets, work out etc. and lose 10lbs and gain 15 back, I have weighed 200 lbs off and on for a couple of years now, I feel like I am going to have a heart attack every time I over eat, which unfortunately is a lot, I love to be active and do things outdoors but just don't feel like doing much being this heavy, I found this website and am hoping for motivation. September of 06 I had a birthday party for my 12 year old and some pictures were taken of me, one was of me walking away, I did not like that picture and it got me motivated, I started walking 4 miles a day 3 and 4 times a week and going to the gym for 2 hours after hitting the trail, I was doing great, I lost 10 lbs and gained good muscle at the same time, I was doing really good. In November I had an allergic reaction to poison ivy I picked up while camping and the next week my Mother in law passed away and then the holidays were here and I just have not been back to the gym or the trail and it has been two months, I have gained all the weight back and feel back to square one. I am out of control and need help, I eat and eat and eat, I over eat all the time and I can't control myself, I eat and I am full but yet I still want the food, I tell myself while I am eating it that I shouldn't be doing it and then I tell myself, "Well I will work out tomorrow, or I will tell myself I will eat everything I want this week and start my diet and work out routine next week" next week hasn't came yet. I may weigh a little over 200 for all I know. If anyone has any secrets please let me know, I need something that can help me stop over eating. I don't eat beef or pork so I need a diet that caters to chicken, salmon, turkey and fruits and veggies, any advise is welcome, glad to be here and look forward to great advise from all the wonderful people here

[eclecticaurora]

I know the feeling of overeating a lot. It's something I'm trying to work on myself. I think that for me, it has to do with my emotions. I'm an overeater who eats whenever any emotion becomes too much. Not sure if that sheds some light into your situation, but even if not, if you ever need to chat just PM me. I don't know of any dietary measures to use with your diet restrictions, but just try to go for the leanest cuts of meat, I guess (they're already pretty lean). Good luck on your journey. I'm at about the same weight as you and I'm looking forward to shedding these pounds!

PS: Are you on any other forums or message boards?

[valerielynn]

To tell you the truth, I over eat no matter what, I make excuses, its that time of the month is my biggest excuse. I think that my problem may stem from when I was a child growing up we didn't have hardly any food so the food I got I ate fast like a puppy who worried her siblings might eat it before she does, lol and I didn't have siblings in the house growing up. My husband is great, he tries to tell me nicely(at my request) that I don't need to eat all that, lol he feels bad saying it to me but I have asked for his help, well all I do is say, well I didn't eat that much today so eating all that will be fine, I am aweful. I do great when I am on the diet kick but something always happens and I get distracted and lose control again. I am serious about it this time, I just can't be this way anymore, my family tells me I am beautiful and I am not fat but I have explained to them that they don't have to keep buying bigger pants size and they don't feel like they are going to explode. Dont get me wrong there are thousands of beautiful sexy full figured women in our world but I myself don't feel comfortable with myself being this overweight and I truly am scared that I am going to have heart issues soon. I abselutely love this site all ready and I have only been a member for a few hours, thank you for your support and to let me know I am not alone, I think it would be easier for me if I over ate due to emotions but for me it is for any reason.
Also, to answer the last question, no I do not have any other postings anywhere else