Hello, my name is Chris and I had came to this site a few months ago wanting to to lose weight and just like everytime before I bailed

. And in doing so I began to drink heavily to try to make myself feel better. NO one knew about because I wk 3pm to 11pm and I would hide it, I drank while everyone slept then I slept my days away. Well at a wopin 227.2 I have made some changes I am now on Zolft and have been 2wk without a drink and 2wks without smokin to

. And I feel great. I have signed up for a fitness program at wk. I start today with my trainer ( God help me) I will be wking out 4 days a week. Well I just wanted to tell someone. I don't want to tell family or friends, afraid they will just think that I starting something I will never finish like so many times before. And don't want to see the look if I succeed. We all know that look, and I don't think I can handle letting them down again. I have babbled long enough I guess. Oh by the way would love to have a buddy or two. Thanks for lettin me vent ......Chris