Hi guys, I am so grateful for all of you, I was just thinking about you all this morning.
I love hearing from you.
I think much of the world is having a hard morning this morning.
Avalon, please have a really good break if that's what's right for you, but I hope to see you as soon as we can. It really helps me to have you hear what you have to say.
I think when I started to get close to finishing P1, the emotional part of my journey intensified, and it was like I was on edge all the time. I think I just didn't have any buffer, and small things bothered me more than in the past. I think in the past I had used the food for the buffer. I wasn't active at all on the threads until I started into P2, and I have really needed them.
oneUh, great to hear from you. I was thinking this morning "I'm having a really rough day". The last month has not been easy for me either, not just with health but with many things. I think it's important that no force just separates us all and starts a sink hole, as you said. Please let us know more about how you are.
I had another evening of tears last night. I actually consider it a "win" in every way that I am able to just feel the "hard" emotions and not surpress.
Amanda, thank you for sticking in here with us, regardless of what you are going through.
JJTx
.... let's all just keep going.
MizBeadz you're in the right place, we have all gone through many waves of lots of things on our health journeys together here. Have to keep telling myself to be careful of dramatic "right and wrongs", and watch out for perfection. Perfection for me is some weird unattainable thing that just keeps me suffering. I'm over it.
For me, I woke up feeling completely shattered this morning. It's just been a hard week, and a hard month. Hard year, to be honest. And, so much has come from it. But really, it's been a challenge. I'm so lucky to have really close friends to lean on. Some days I'm sailing strong, but today is not one of those days. However, how I am treating myself is caring, not abusive, and not using food or sugar to bring me "up" so I can deal with it better. But not having the supression is also causing me to feel the "negative" feelings of life more fully. Sooooo......
onward and upward, there's a spark in me, let my colors burst
Thank you Avalon for carrying on the thread.