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Originally Posted by lisa32989
I gotta stick with the people who are with me because they will help me succeed. Cheats for me are like termites in a house. You never have just one. And an infestation is what got me back to 260 and in incredible pain.
No one else is living my life. But I know there are others with similar issues. For me it is dire. No option. Freedom or misery. One bite could lead me back to misery. THAT is why I have to be so adamant.
Lisa -- I thank you so much for sharing what you did in today's post. I can almost completely relate. I need to be 100%, too, for the reasons you stated. I read most of yesterday's discussion through the hand over my eyes, because, like you, I really cannot allow the notion to cheat to fester in my head. Another reason I need to be 100% is that I am an extreme "all or nothing" person. If I am going to be successful on this program and in a new lifestyle free of pain, I need to work with my personality as I know it to be. All or nothing. All on program for me.
That said, I am on Day 4 and remain very, very humble in this process. Unlike most others, I have never successfully lost much weight. (First, I discovered hypothyroidism, then years later, Cushings Disease.) I will deal with maintenance when I get there, but for right now, I just need to focus on staying on this wagon fully . . . no toes dragging in the dirt, no hands hanging off the side. On and in the wagon completely, facing forward. For my personality, it will be the only way.
Day 4 for me, feeling a tad bit better, dare I say. The blinding headache is gone. Now I'm having "heat blasts." It's as if my inner furnace turns on for a few minutes, burns hotly, and then I return to normal. Interesting experience. I just try to think of all the cals burning!
Happy weekend to you all . . . one more thing . . . my husband is re-tiling the mudroom this weekend. Please tell me I am not a deadbeat for not helping. I moved the laundry bins out of there, and I was spent.