I've been thinking a lot about hunger. I've been searching the web a bit to find out more about hunger. I fall on a lot of advice about how to curb hunger, keep hunger at bay, offset hunger. But I am more interested in the concept of facing hunger and accepting that the road to true health (for me) will lead me to making peace with hunger. All my life I've bee running away from hunger, battling hunger, making war with hunger. I'm scared of hunger and I don't know why. This is not so much an emotional need, this is a physiological need for me to come to terms with something very scary - HUNGER. I ask myself these questions:
- Why am I so scared of being hungry?
- What's the worst that will happen to me if I experience hunger?
- What am I trying to not feel by eating?
Just yesterday I was preparing dinner, hubby was out on errands and was expected home at a certain time. He was late and at that time I was hungry. But as I waited for him to get home I started getting angry. He wasn't late to dinner, in fact I was trying to push dinner a bit earlier because I was so hungry. When he came home I was seething and saying hurtful things to him although he really did nothing wrong. He knows I've been struggling lately with my diet and sugar detox so he's very understanding. But as I think back on it now I see that my hunger drove me to anger. I know it's bad but I'm glad I held off eating and didn't munch on crackers. I think I need to feel more of this, I need to address hunger and the issues that arise with it. I can't keep burying how I feel with food.
If anyone knows any good sites or books about dealing with the issue of hunger I'd be appreciative. Not just "drink lots of water" and "don't skip breakfast" because those are technical things to ward off hunger, not the issue here. So far I found this, http://www.shapingconcepts.com/blog/...-hunger-pains/ which seems interesting although a little bodybuilding/men specific.