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Old 03-20-2014, 04:10 AM   #1  
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Default Mixed Feelings After Reading Facebook

I have been looking up people from my past on Facebook. I happened to find the FB postings of people that went to grade school with me and I found myself feeling very sad for a few days, which really surprised me.

In grade school, I was severely bullied for being overweight. The boys wanted nothing to do with me and many girls made fun of me and excluded me from parties and other fun activities. Now on Facebook, they all reminisce about all of the fun they had and how much their friendships meant to each other. I know how postings on Facebook are often portrayed to be happier than reality, but it still hurts me that most of the kids would not give me the time of day, because of my weight. My parents and siblings also offered no support so I had a very lonely time as a kid.

I feel ridiculous for feeling sad about something that happened a very long time ago; I am way too old to waste time thinking about it. But it would have meant the world to me if I could have been included. I feel that I really missed out on some very special experiences and they missed out on a good friend.

I am glad that they had good memories of their childhood and very happy that they formed lifelong friendships. Many of them have gone on to do amazing things, and I find myself genuinely happy for them. I just wish that I could have shared those experiences.

If you have children or teens who feel left out by their peers for any reason, please be sure to offer some comfort and support. It will make a big difference in their lives.

Has anyone else experienced mixed feelings after reading Facebook?
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Old 03-20-2014, 04:40 AM   #2  
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Right there with you. I had friends, mostly girls. I did have a best friend too. I had some boys as friends, but no boyfriends. No prom, no dances, no one sneaking notes to me asking me out (Unless it was to make fun of me).

I remember one boy in particular, Shawn, who always teased me. I hated to have a class with him because he'd always pick on me, call me names, make fun of me and my weight. Oh my goodness, I'll never forget when we had these dumb scooters in gym class that we'd sit on and play some kind of goofy kind of soccer with them, and one of them broke. No, I didn't break it, but he told everyone I did because I was so fat. I wasn't sad one bit to find out he had passed away a few years back...he was drinking and driving.

I'm "friends" with those who were friends with me in school. We recall the happy moments. I know they probably remember me being picked up in school and it's embarrassing, but it's in the past. Some of them friended me because they saw we went to the same school but do not remember me! They don't recognize me now, which is strange.

Are you "friends' with them on FB or just able to see their profiles? Absolutely no reason for you to friend anyone you are uncomfortable with or who teased you. People do change, but you're not obligated to give them a second chance. Choice is yours!

I will say this, I'm more confident now in my 30's having survived all of that and I use that knowledge to help others! Current friends and co-workers have looked to be for advice knowing that I've lost a lot of weight and have mostly kept it off. Focus on the new you!
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Old 03-20-2014, 07:23 AM   #3  
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I want to offer you some comfort and to tell you that it is very understandable that those memories and the idea of memories that never happened still sting. When I was in my second high school, 11 & 12 th grade we moved) I ended up having a great grou of friends, mostly guys and some girls...we were all very close, but when senior prom cane around none of them wanted to go with me. Some of them had girl friends but some of them asked girls outside our click, it was never really talked about but I was the only fat girl in our group...the other girls in our click tried to find me a date, I know they all felt so bad, it was humiliating.

Years later they some of them are on my Facebook and I honestly forgot about it until about 2 weeks ago they posted a group pic from the prom for throw back Thursday... And of course everyone started commenting, including one girl who she and I parted ways as friends in college and are not Facebook friends. I used the "I don't want to see thus, hide" option for the pic but itvwasctoo late, I already saw it and was already reminded of the memories I never made.

Even though I am happy with me life now, it doesn't make it hurt less. So I understand what you are saying. I have found the best thing to do is not think about it, and not look at things that make you think about it. Since you can't change it, thinking about it will likely never stop the hurt, and of course telling those people to get the feelings out is not a realistic option. I know it hurts, I wish I had a better suggestion for you.

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Old 03-20-2014, 07:42 AM   #4  
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Sounds like what happened to me in elementary school. I think it's perfectly reasonable for you to be sad about what did and didn't happen. I'm best off when I think more about the present and future (and good past experiences) than when I think about unpleasantness from the past.

So, for your own happiness, you might want to avoid going there. You might think more instead about what you can do at this stage in your life to move forward from wherever you are now. Moving forward can be in whatever dimension you choose.

Wishing you much happiness!
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Old 03-20-2014, 04:19 PM   #5  
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Thank you all for your comments. I am very interested to learn about your experiences and I absolutely agree with everything.

The way I coped after grade school was to focus on myself and my future. I had a some fun in junior high and high school with girlfriends (I was not invited to the prom, but none of my friends went, so it wasn't as hard for me).

I then went to college, grad school, got married, had a career and great friends.
I'm also grateful for all of it.

The best remedy has been to make myself happy, feel gratitude for the good things and try to forget about the past.

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Old 03-20-2014, 05:31 PM   #6  
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I found FB to be depressing in a lot of ways. My solution was to delete my account. I just don't need it in my life.
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Old 03-20-2014, 08:59 PM   #7  
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I've found a lot of people that I knew from grade school - high school on facebook. At first, it was fun seeing everyone again and what they'd become. But, now, it's kind of annoying. The same group of folks post all the time and comment on each other's posts. They're just people I knew and saw every day, not really friends. I had only a handful of close friends, and one best friend - all female. I wasn't asked to the prom, but went with my best friend and another girl. It wasn't so bad. I didn't date either, but then, I don't remember a lot of people I hung around with dating. There were some couples, but not in my crowd.

I was teased a bit when I was really young - between grades 4 and 6, I think. One boy, I remember, was insanely cruel with "fatty" nicknames. I ran into him when I was in college, and he couldn't have been nicer. I have no idea what has happened to him, but I haven't looked - don't care.

I have noticed that a lot of the "popular girls" have gained weight in middle age. I must admit that I find this amusing. I wonder how they feel now that the shoe is on the other foot. And, interestingly, a lot of people who were the "coolest, best looking, etc." are not so much anymore. Seems they peaked in high school -- that must be a b!tch!

I've always thought myself a late bloomer, and if we were to have a reunion this year (and we should - 30 years!) I'd feel more confident among them now, than I did in high school.
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Old 03-20-2014, 11:08 PM   #8  
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I have good and bad memories of high school....some older boy (junior when I was a freshman or 8th grade) taunted me endlessly and always tried to sit with me on the bus....I don't remember him being MEAN, but just endlessly pestering me and such and I hated it....I never liked him and felt bullied later in life we visited online and he confessed that he had had such a crush on me back then and was trying to get my attention

if I didn't like someone back then, I see no reason to friend them on facebook now....simple....I don't actively hate anyone from back then, but I have no desire to have anything to do with some of them now
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Old 03-20-2014, 11:48 PM   #9  
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Originally Posted by newleaf123 View Post
I found FB to be depressing in a lot of ways. My solution was to delete my account. I just don't need it in my life.
This. Also, I would add in "aggravating" for my own experience because, argh, the drama.

doingmybest, I'm so sorry your experience on FB brought back so many bad memories and pain. I hope you've been able to shake it off and are feeling more like yourself again.

When I joined FB and received friend requests from old classmates who had run with the popular crowd, it was...really weird. No acknowledgement that they had picked on me or completely ignored me (some of them had not spoken to me once from kindergarten to graduation!), just a little automated box asking if I would be their FB friend. I also had a lot of memories and feelings come up. I know everyone is mostly just curious to see what their old classmates are up to, but it still makes for a bizarre experience, doesn't it?
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Old 03-21-2014, 12:37 AM   #10  
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Yes, I have!

I was very busy with academics and a sport not connected to competing for the schools I went to, so I basically had no social life or friends. I literally only went to class and never hung out with or saw my fellow students outside of class. I sometimes lurk on facebook and check out names I remember from high school, and I see that many of them are friended and hang out with each other and keep in touch. It's very weird to not have had normal friendships in high school like normal people had. I have no social memories from school at all because there weren't any. I do feel like I missed out and it definitely hampered normal social development. I never went to a single dance or football game or belonged to any clubs that ever met after school throughout my entire high school years (I did go to senior prom only with a guy friend two years younger that also competed in my sport so I knew him from my team.) I didn't hang out with friends after school or on weekends either because of sports obligations, plus no one invited me anyway.

I didn't experience being straight up ostracized I'm so very sorry you were. Mostly I was barely acknowledged, almost like I was invisible, although there was a begrudging respect for my athletic abilities which shielded me from more severe bullying. I was considered decidedly unattractive (a few choice boys would bark at me in the hallway) until the last part of my senior year when I started to develop a bit and I started trying out wearing a bit of makeup.

Having good friends growing up is so important, and you only really need one good friend, not a whole gaggle, but I didn't have that either. At least I had my younger sister - we were great friends, thank goodness. I don't dwell on the past, because it was so far in the past, and I certainly met plenty of friends in college and beyond. I use what I experienced to help me balance my young daughter's life - I want her to have a well-rounded childhood. I work mega-hard to help facilitate her having friendships, etc. My own mom didn't think it was that important. Plus, in her later years, she confessed she felt a lot of social pressure having being in the popular crowd in a small school, and she didn't want me to experience any of that. Well, she did accomplish that, lol, thanks mom

I use an alias on facebook, much to the amusement of my current fb friends (I sometimes get called my facebook alias out in public as a nickname by my neighbors, friends, and co-workers, lol, it's kind of hilarious) I'm only friends with people I currently know and want to know. I have zero interest in people who might remember my name from way back when, trying to friend me on fb. I always joke that the punchline is, if I ever de-stealth on facebook, no one would be looking for me anyway, lol! Fine by me.
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Absolutely. Sometimes I regret what I see one Facebook! My best friend from college got married a few months ago, and I had the misfortune of seeing a bunch of our mutual friends (her circle of friends that I was very much a part of, I thought anyway) Post on FB about how much fun her bachelorette party was. I was not invited. This sent me into a spiral of upset, because I would have dropped everything to be there for her bachelorette, and she didn't even think to ask me. I try not to take things personally, but that one hurt. As far as FB is concerned though, I'm not really friends with people I wasn't friends with at school, I don't really want to remember all the teasing and mean people from those old days!
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Facebook is just as bad as grade school. It's all a big popularity contest which makes people feel left out, for some it's a source of attention or a place to vent ALL of their problems. I hide the negative people. It's kind of a sad place in general. I have lost friends who are totally addicted to that site. They NEVER call anymore, they only contact me through text or FB.

A lot of it is smoke in mirrors. Try not to invest too much into it, if my BF wasn't in bands I wouldn't be on there at all.
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Old 03-22-2014, 11:25 AM   #13  
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Did anyone see the movie "Social Network"? Facebook is, now, what it was originally created to become. According to the movie, Mark Zuckerberg (sp?) was a brilliant misfit in college and couldn't get into the social groups that he wanted to be in. So, he created facebook as a kind of "look at me" application for the popular crowd, and by default, he got a lot of attention, too... which was his intention.

I found the movie disturbing, as it confirmed my dislike of facebook, and I realized that I'd fallen for "wanting to belong" and then became disillusioned once I "belonged" -- hard to explain, but I've always been rather private with facebook. I think my last post was 6 or 7 months ago, and I only peek in out of curiosity about once a month. Funnily, it's like a soap opera - you can get the gist of what's going on in everyone's life by looking in only every once in a while. ha!
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if I didn't like someone back then, I see no reason to friend them on facebook now....simple....I don't actively hate anyone from back then, but I have no desire to have anything to do with some of them now
This 100x!
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Old 03-23-2014, 04:23 AM   #15  
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Most of the posters above have said it all.
3 years ago I quit FB cold turkey and with that I kicked 99% of the sadness out of my life. It was making me depressed in so many different ways.
Note to the OP: Even if it weren't for that situation you have at hand, FB would still have a way of making you feel like you're slacking behind "better people".
Seriously, analyzing it well, it's all BS on there. Really not worth it!
I'm so happy to return to my pre-FB self. I don't miss it.

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