Feeling guilty about feeling irritated that I need to re-juggle my entire schedule to be with my mom while she undergoes and recovers from a "girl parts" procedure. I'm an only child, my parents are 70 and divorced, and I'm just beginning to see the start of having to step in and deal with their age-related issues.
I'm feeling down today. My ex threw me completely out of whack by contacting me. Somehow, he made me analyze my current relationship and I'm a little disappointed at the moment. I realized that my boyfriend never tells me I'm pretty - his past relationship was really sexual and they were mostly just attracted to each other. Maybe he didn't tell her either...or maybe I'm just not as attractive...
He doesn't seem to feel as intensely as I do. I see him logging in and out of Facebook, checking messages, and he kind of just ignores me now. He'll reach out later in the day but up until that point, I sit alone. Don't get me wrong, we still do talk but I have a feeling that I'm investing too much.
I just started to wonder why I'm not all that lovable. My ex always put other girls first and now I'm not sure what my current boyfriend is doing. I keep thinking, "If I weighed less..." "If I had a nicer face..." "If I was more talented..." I know I shouldn't be so sad over something like that and I wasn't until my ex came calling. Now I'm just sitting here by myself because, once again, my boyfriend hasn't bothered to say anything to me.
It is entirely possible that I'm overreacting. I will say this - my boyfriend said, "I think this is trial and error. This is what forgiveness is for." So I'm trying to hold onto that. I'll admit, I was okay until my ex came back. He brought up a lot of bad memories and thoughts. I wish he weren't such a selfish person, he could have left me alone. Now he's blocked everywhere: phone, Facebook, IM, you name it.
There is this random porn channel that appeared in our TV Guide Menu thingy. There was always ''adults'' channel in our guide, but they were at the end of it, so you were never scrolling down to them. (like, we don't have access to it, you need to pay, but it is still on the menu, like with the current movies you can rent or something).
But this new one just appeared, right in the middle of channels we DO watch and I can't find a way to just take it off.
I'm just tired of scrolling down and seeing ''Spread the...'', clicking in it to know what it is and see ''SPREAD THE LEGS''
I'm really hating my job. This re-org is killing me and no one seems to give a darn. I have more work and people are continuing to pile it on because I'm the only one who knows how to do certain things (and GOD FORBID, they learn!)
I have a new boss who I see MAYBE once a week and our main form of communication is e-mail. I can't get a clear answer as to what my role is, which doesn't sit well.
I totally get that. I dislike my job. It's boring, it doesn't utilize my strengths, and my boss is a drunk who often forgets critical information and/or appointments and then the fallout for that is on me. Unfortunately (fortunately? Depends on POV) they pay me well and I have this ridiculously short commute. I can't afford to quit to take a job that would pay less but have a much longer commute. So I feel trapped at a job I don't enjoy and that often has me figuratively banging my head into the desk.
My puppy has been a pain in my *** the past few days.
First, he snuck into my roommate's room and ate a second pair of panties and the foot off a pair of footy PJs. Then he stole one of her sandals.
Sometime in the last 48 hours, he got hold of my blanket through his crate and ripped a hole in it, too. Stuffing everywhere! Now I need a new blanket...
This morning, he won't stop bouncing off the walls. I swear he needs sedated some days. @.@
Feeling guilty about feeling irritated that I need to re-juggle my entire schedule to be with my mom while she undergoes and recovers from a "girl parts" procedure. I'm an only child, my parents are 70 and divorced, and I'm just beginning to see the start of having to step in and deal with their age-related issues.
Being the only daughter is HAAAAAAAARD. I feel this.
lovedancelive your ex sucks, glad you blocked him.
I'm really sorry if anybody employed by the postal service is reading this but I am thoroughly convinced that the USPS IS RECEIVING GOVERNMENT SUBSIDIES FOR HIRING ADULTS WITH SPECIAL NEEDS!!!
I haven't received mail in almost a week. Finally got a whole bunch of it, this morning. Okay, somehow it got held up/stacked up, that's fine, I think I have just about anything that's really important coming via email or pvt. carriers, anyway because I can't trust the USPS to actually do it's job.
I start looking through my stack of mail and it turns out it's for the church across the street! First, even if my home looked remotely like a church they're across the street, my house is on the EVEN side of the street, they're on the ODD side. Second, my house number is NOTHING like their address and I don't just have it posted ONCE outside of my home, I have a HUGE plaque plus the numbers directly over the mail slot. The kicker??? This isn't the first time this has happened!!! I lived in apartments for 25 years before buying this house and NEVER, NEVER, NEVER had the problems with receiving my mail that I have since moving here!!
So I call the post office and get this absolutely condescending jerkwad on the phone and all I could think is if this organization was any other private company they would have been out of business 20 years ago.
I'm really hating my job. This re-org is killing me and no one seems to give a darn. I have more work and people are continuing to pile it on because I'm the only one who knows how to do certain things (and GOD FORBID, they learn!)
I have a new boss who I see MAYBE once a week and our main form of communication is e-mail. I can't get a clear answer as to what my role is, which doesn't sit well.
Time to start a job search. UGH.
Omg, yes find another job. Don't make the mistake I did by staying 5 years while they piled me to death with work, it took a horrible toll on me mentally. Now they're mad I'm leaving because they will actually have to WORK. God forbid! Maybe if the OM kept the place properly staffed instead of being cheap my notice would be a non-issue. A-holes!
Sorry for hijack I came to rant about my job, saw this and it set off flames! I'm so done with employers taking advantage of people!!!
ETA: I gave a 3 week notice and they feel that wasn't sufficient! Um what?? I only have to give 2 so deal with it!
"The most loving parents and relatives commit murder with smiles on their faces. They force us to destroy the person we really are: a subtle kind of murder."
I never know how to tell people that my parents and I aren't in contact very often because they're crappy parents. How do you explain the family I have? I won't even bother trying.
I called home for the first time in weeks to catch up. Not even a half hour in, my Mom and I are fighting. She called anyone who has any kind of tattoo in any location a freak and told me that I have no respect for her - despite the fact that it's my damn body and I don't even have a tattoo nor did I say I have serious plans for getting one.
This woman doesn't learn. She would never dream of shutting her mouth and opening her ears. She thinks, "I gave birth to you. Therefore I know you." How about no? Don't presume to know me; you don't. You don't listen to me, you never have, and after tonight, I've given up on all communication. Don't count on me calling back.
I'm a college graduate who takes care of not only herself but her puppy which, yeah, kind of a lot of responsibility. I don't drink, smoke, or do drugs. I don't get in any trouble whatsoever and she treats me like a criminal. The way she bosses me around is disrespectful and I'm almost 25 years old.
I'm so done with employers taking advantage of people!!!
