I can't believe I'm even typing this. I can't believe the SAME people robbed us again; the first was on my son's bday if you can believe that one, April 9th this year.... corey my son came home today to find our door hd been kicked in and it was wide open, the doorframe was kicked completely out from the wall and splintered out... the first time we had over 10k worth of electronics stolen, this time we think its around 1200, but even still, its like I know things like this happen, but why me........why now....... I've suffered 3 miscarriages in the last year, the last one in the second trimester (Gracie Renee born and died June 11, 2007 12:01am), we were robbed twice, plus lots of other stuff, and I'm like, enough already!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! enough!!!!!!!!!!!! good grief. james' friend brought over this pc I'm typing on thank the Lord so at least I have something to work on. And our cats are okay, Mia and Chloe, were okay, never left the apartment. amazing, a miracle, I think. and here I am, all screwed up and on prozac with anxiety and panic disorders, and this happens, just when I'm getting myself put back together after losing Gracie. unbelievable. I just fail to see why in the world people can actually do stuff like this...they are pure evil. and to think they were watching us, casing us, ugh.....I can't even perceive that, I feel so violated, I never did anything to them. we didn't know they were the ones who did it last time, right, and all we knew was they were our neighbors, and so we were nice as could be to them, only to come around and have this happen. makes me wonder just who I can and cannot trust in this world. well the cops are on the trail, so we are leaving them to their job. but in the midst of it, in the thick of things, I'm feeling pretty low tonight girls. I am grateful that I can come here and vent, and share, and maybe feel a little better after talking about it. I can't wait til we move, but right now, I'm pretty freaked out, I have to admit. I just can't help but wonder if it will happen again before we move....oh God please help me deal with this........