I think those feelings are normal. I still wonder about my first love. I haven't seen him or any of his family in years, but I think of him occasionally, and wonder how he is. I found out after we broke up that he's gay, so I don't wonder about a wife or girlfriend. I know he has a SO and that's probably a different experience than wondering about a wife or girlfriend. I don't know that I could explain that, but I do feel like I would feel more "jealous" at the thought of him being with another woman. :shrug:

I do sometimes think of contacting him. We were great friends for the longest, friends longer than boyfriend/girlfriend. But I never have. And at this point it just seems like it would be pointless. I doubt we have a lot in common anymore, just memories, and they are better left in the past.

UPDATE!!!!

O.K Brandons mom called me to invite me to a dinner where our mutual close friends and even some of my family would be going to, I told her I couldn't go becasue my fiance would feel too awkward with Brandon there, she understood but then she dropped a huge bomb she said BRANDON STILL LOVES YOU:yikes::yikes:

I didn't know what to think, she said he talks about you a lot but of course not around his GF but his brother told his GF about me and even showed her a picture of me and she got pretty mad. She said she was jealouse of me. I don't know why she's the one with him:?:.
I was also told that she isn't all that attractive and this is going to sound very shallow but I SOOOOO love hearing that I was perttier than her.:o:devil:

My DH and i met as kids and were eachothers first loves. Last year i married him.

Awww thats cute thintinythighs. Congrats.

Shy--you should go to send off your friend--sometimes we put those first loves on a pedestal they don't deserve to be on, I know I did. You remember all the good and none of the bad, seeing him again may remind you why you two are not together.