So I recently posted about a very embarrassing subject: my husband looking a porn.
He confirmed it. I wasn't just crazy.
Now I am so completely confused. This happened about a year ago, also. I told him from the beginning of our relationship...before we even started dating...that I was not against porn, but I don't think it has a place in a relationship. That once you start dating, it shouldn't continue. Maybe I am crazy, but I am not, but that is my personal feeling toward it and I can't change who I am. He agreed, said he used to look at it, but did not anymore. I caught him after about a year. We got through it, he said it wasn't an all the time thing, and that he understood my feelings. He said it was done and over with. Now I find he is doing it again.
The fact that he has lied to me hurts so badly, I don't even know where to begin. I am sitting here bawling, and the pain just won't go away. I trusted him, I told him everything, and he lied to me AGAIN. I don't know what to do. I can't change who I am, or how I feel about it. I don't think I should have to. I was up front and honest from the get go. He is the one who hid how he felt. Now what am I supposed to do??? How can I get through this again?