Hi. I know this doesn't have a lot to do with weight loss. Well, it has nothing to do with weight loss. My grandpa died this morning. It's not the first time I've experienced a death in the family. My grandma (other side of the family) died of cancer on Thanksgiving a few years back. I'm afraid for my grandma because she loves him and every one keeps saying she might die of a broken heart when he goes. My dad is the type to not show his feelings...he's like me. When I heard it I waited for cry until he left, then I cried for a moment or two, now I'm trying not to cry.
My dad moved to Florida to be near his parents. Now my grandma might move back to VA...I don't don't know why she would stay here and live alone...but then that means perhaps, maybe we'd move back to VA.
It's a scary thought...because as much as I hated FL at first, I just now started to accept that I'm here. And I have one last year of HS left, with people I like. I couldn't bear to be the new kid again. But I digress...maybe that's not going to happen at all. I'm sure my dad would wait for me as well. And people can't just move over night. =\
But things are going to change...I just don't know how yet. I'm also wanting to go to VA with them for the funeral, I presume. But inside I want to see how much my home town has changed. I want to see if I'd be happier there now than in FL now.
I feel bad that I don't feel so much emotion right now. I worry more so about my dad and my grandma than about his death.
I guess I needed to vent. (And despite this, I'm not going off plan. There's no reason to. You can't throw off a diet even if something terrible happens. Eating won't fix your problems, and gaining weight isn't going to help you feel better. That's how I feel, even though this has happened).