JossFit : I'll DEFINETELY have Smores for you! I wrote down my grocery camping list last night to make sure I forget nothing when we go tonight and the first 2 things on the list were : Grahams crackers and Hershey Chocolat Bar (I already have marshmallows somewhere in the kitchen HIHI) Oh and eating baking mix? Like without the milk and everything?!

Krampus : Oh god, I've been begging my bf forever to take a trip to the Adirondacks! For this time though we picked a place called Mont Megantic about 1h30 road drive from hour place, at about 20 minutes from the Maine lines. Since it's hour first hiking trip of the summer, we picked a smaller mountain to start with :P Howere a trip to the Adirondacks is SO going to happen at some point this year. We are at least going to hike there for my birthday (I wanted to go there last year but I was out of shape and we promised each other we would do that we our new rocking bodies the year after). And well, it's gonna be my birthday, so he won't be able to refuse to go :P

Originally Posted by JossFit:
Another positive is that I think I really am over my former binge eating issues. Yes, I ate a lot yesterday... but it was a CONSCIOUS choice to do so. I define a binge the way it is clinically defined; seemingly unable to control eating, eating in response to a trigger, etc. I haven't had a real binge like that in a long long time. I have overeaten, sure, but it's always me choosing to eat a lot and there is no desperate out of control "I will eat pancake mix out of the box" kind of thing. (LOL not that I have ever done that, but some people do talk about eating baking mixes and such... I always just went out and bought binge foods). Any overeating has been more along the lines of just eating too much at celebrations or something like that. You know, what normal people do... haha

I've been feeling this way recently, too! Congrats to us for being able to overeat like healthy people! :P

TurboMammoth I think my BF is going to hike Megantic sometime in the near future with our friends in Montreal! How far is Sherbrooke from Montreal?

Originally Posted by krampus:

TurboMammoth I think my BF is going to hike Megantic sometime in the near future with our friends in Montreal! How far is Sherbrooke from Montreal?

Not far that far! about 1h30-2hours drive, depending on the traffic! I actually wanted to gave you a shout out when I heard you were coming in Montreal, but that was the boyfriend had already volunteers the both of us to help a friend moving that weekend :P

Originally Posted by TurboMammoth:
Oh and eating baking mix? Like without the milk and everything?!

Yeah, I have heard/read stories from people talking about going on an all out binge where they just eat ANYTHING. Mixing together butter and sugar and just eating it by the spoonful, cans of frosting, raw oatmeal, eating their roommate's/husband's/kids etc. snacks... stuff like that. I've never done it myself, but I can only imagine how shameful that would feel!

Almost 2 PM and not even slightly hungry. Today is a scheduled gym day so I probably *should* eat. Oh well, I have until 4 before "if I eat now I'll throw up in my mouth at the gym" crunchtime begins.

Joss Your attitude is so healthy! I love it, and well done for not binging. It's normal to over eat sometimes, I think everyone does it. :hug:

Krampus haha, everyone's syncing! Ok well I had mine last week, maybe there is something in the water. 9 hours of BBQ sounds amazing! That's the dream right there, we don't get the weather for that. Good luck having a weekend with no plans! I have a love hate relationship with them when I'm losing.

Turbo TOM probably made you hungry! And besides when you're just at home around food all the time it can be hard to resist! Story of my life hah. Camping sounds awesome. Don't sweat the food too much, you'll be hiking!

DottieMae These things happen, hope today went well for you! I often over eat or binge when drinking.. it's tricky.

pixelllate Sorry to hear about all the stress! Families can be crazy. I guess they're just worried because it's a big difference. Can you point out to them other people that are the same weight? Maybe it'll help them realise that you're ok and healthy.

and hey to everyone I missed, I'm sorry. Also I'll add to the Dorian where are you? Even if things are bad, come back! :hug:



Well I didn't cave and have a cake as a reward for a new low but I did eat a half pound burger haha.. tasty. It was home made anyway so the bread was pita bread and not a big burger bun. I'm not worried, if I'm up tomorrow I'd say it's more because of the salt than anything else because I didn't eat very much today. Have to take stupid tablets again for a week and they made me so tired that I lay in bed and watched Sex & The City. Umm.. I'm cool, I swear.

Yesterday as a treat I had mint tea and dates Moroccan style, it was so damn good. Way better than biscuits.. now that's an achievement for me as I'm Irish and tea and biscuits are very much part of our diet.

Thanks for all of the encouragement everyone! Not sure how the cake and pizza diet works, but hey, we can't argue with results. Maybe I should write one of those silly magazine articles like "eat cake and lose weight! see inside for details". That's what everyone's looking for, right? Next time somebody asks me my secret I'm telling them cake and pizza. It's what they want to hear.

Hi!

I feel like I'm about to start my period. I'm starving all the time and fat. Gaining weight every day! This too shall pass :-D

Bach at pre-off-track weight of 132.2, so yay!
I am gonna do personals later today or tomorrow.

I just have been a bit of a wreck. There's me having to graduate eventually that has been hanging above my head for years. I keep denying it and postphoning even thinking about it. It has reached the point where it's gonna cost me extra money and it's gonna be hard to get it all done because my credits are old and not all valid anymore. I decided 3 weeks ago that July was the month where I could deny it no longer, so I struggled with that this week - checking my University e-mail just made me cry. LOL. I cry maybe once a year but just knowing I can't run from something anymore was enough to do that to me. Today I have a meeting with the coordinator at Uni and I am nervous, nervous, nervous.

126.8 this morning. I wasn't hungry yesterday and everything I ate was awesome - Greek yogurt and berries, arugula salad with tomatoes and homemade dressing with hard-boiled eggs, kale and brown rice and fish, and cherries for dessert.

My bf is stressed to all **** about being broke. He's being slaughtered by student loans, other bills and the costs of living in a single apartment on the river. I don't really care - I can fend for myself - but I hope things get better for him because tbh I'm tired of listening to him complain about it because I can't do anything about it and if I offer to loan him money he won't accept it. So now we're browsing part-time jobs on Craigslist together. I could stand to get another job honestly anyway.

philana I'm sorry you got stressed to tears! Graduation is a huge leap and I can imagine it's really tough to get through in the bureaucratic Dutch university system >_< Hang in there!!!

crazygurl61 This too shall pass, you are right! Didn't you have TOM a couple weeks ago? Maybe you're gonna ovulate.

LeilaJey Burger and pizza diet? OK! Mint tea and dates sounds lovely. What is the summer like in Ireland? What's the warmest it tends to get? It's HOT here in NY, like 35 C.

Apologies for no personals, but I'm just checking in to keep myself accountable. Add me to the "TOM" train... lol, if we all synchronize from being on the same message board.

I'm down to 150.4 but just itching to break and stay into the 140's.

On a slightly weight-related topic, how do you ladies feel about you SO (significant other) being bigger or smaller than you? I'm single, but I have HUGE (no pun intended) issues with a guy being lighter and/or shorter than me. Thing is, sometimes I wonder if I'm cheating myself out of a good dude, just because of his body type... Kind of like reverse discrimination. Then again, it's one thing if a guy is naturally scrawny, but another ballgame entirely if he likes and works toward being thin... (I'm thinking of someone in particular but am wondering if it's even worth bothering with... *sigh*)

Happy weekend!!!

Alexis : I know what you mean on the SO issue... I ended a relationship partly because the guy was shorter than me and had such a tiny frame... (however, he was also freack so I did not have to use the ''you're smaller than me'' excuse that time lol) I can't be comfortable with someone I feel I am going to break

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Not much time for much personals, I'm trying to finish some stuff at the lab before heading out of town.

I was 136.4 lbs this morning (which is okay). i also found that that the job i postulated to is still up there on site when it was supposed to stop being shown on the first of july, and now it,s pushed back to the 31th of August. So I called my boyfriend almost crying saying the the did not like my resume and are still looking for someone. Bwaawaahwahh. I'm going to hide in the woods for the weekend. Nobody told me that it would be some **** finding a job after those graduated studies!

Have a good weekend!

Alexistrophic I can't deal with smaller than me or skinnier. I've done it before, never by a huge margin, but I love feeling smaller. Current BF is just right at 6'2 and 220.

TurboMammoth No tears!!! Something will work out. Have a great weekend away!

Krampus! It says that you've exceeded ur Inbox space or something and I can't message you anymore - do you have an email address or something you can msg me?

krampus 35C is hot! Is it breezy? Bleh I hate that kind of heat in cities, I remember sleeping one night in Madrid and the beds had wool blankets on them. It's ok by the coast. I like it in the low 20s. At the moment it's mostly in the high teens but raining a lot or just very humid. There's been some flash floods in a few places too, so mostly just wet wet wet. When we do get hot and sunny weather it's usually 20-27 max. I think the hottest ever recorded temperature was 33C in the 1800's haha

Oh and Christmas Day was 13C and last week we had a day of 11C so ehh, not very defined seasons. I'd love to live somewhere for a while that just has normal seasons and not just this mild and wet bullshit.

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I'm leaving again tomorrow but I'll be back on Monday.. visiting some friends but nothing crazy this time thankfully. I'm really enjoying this whooshing (or splooshing as my bf calls it) right now so I don't want to drive myself crazy! I was 145.4 this morning.. somehow.. hopefully it sticks!

I had amazing home made cookies (white chocolate and cranberries!!) and chai tea earlier. So nevermind that crap I said yesterday about mint tea and dates ;)

Have a great weekend everyone xo

Arrrgggg! What a frustrating day!

Well, today was THE day... time to pick up the newly altered wedding dress. I got the dress on, and it was awful! They took in the sides and raised the hem, but they completely abandoned the top of the dress! My boobs fell out! I was livid, and they insisted that I never asked to have it altered, though you can CLEARLY see that it didn't fit. Evidently the seamstress didn't write down the top on the work sheet, so it didn't get done. Since there was no proof of it on the sheet, I had to not only pay for it again, but I had to pay an extra bit in order to get it fixed today. Oh, and drive back there and pick it up again. Great.

So, 3 hours later I came back and tried it on again. this time the top fit, but they didn't take it in all the way down the back, so there was a big bulge of fabric in the lower back area. It looked nice from the front, but from the side I just looked like a tripod. The dress is supposed to hug my body not flow away from it. Again, they argued with me about it. "Well it's already tight up top (almost suggesting it was too tight)... are you sure you want that?" Um, YES!! I want the dress to fit like it's supposed to!

So, they re-pinned it yet again and this time I waited for them to fix it on the spot. I got into it again and it was better, but still not perfect. Oh well, I guess it's as good as it's going to get. I would have had them do it again but I was tired of it and I had to get to the UPS store to ship the dress off to my BFF before they closed. (She is driving to the wedding and is going to drive it out for me... I don't trust the airlines not to lose it or tear it).

Just to add a bit of insult to injury, I then had to pay another $160 to ship it to her.

I'm glad I got a good deal on the dress, because alterations and shipping was another $400 on top of that (and let's not even get into shoes, undergarments, jewelry, hair pieces, my clutch... ugh!)

Anyway, it's done now, so the trick will be just not letting my body change AT ALL over the next two weeks! haha

Speaking of which, I weigh in tomorrow and I'm super curious to see what it says. I definitely had a "visual whoosh" after my unplanned indulgences on the 4th so I'm wondering if I actually had one weight-wise or what. I like how I'm looking right now and my clothes fit great, so that's what matters.

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Leila - I hope you have a fun and relaxing weekend out of town with the bf, and congrats on the weight! You are totally speaking my language with the homemade white chocolate cranberry cookies! My favorite are white chocolate macadamia nut, but the cranberries sound great too. :)

Turbo - Aww, hugs woman! :hug: Try not to be too upset about it... I am an "everything happens for a reason" type of thinker, and I know it will work out for you whether it seems that way right now or not. Keep your chin up!

Alexis - I TOTALLY can relate; I always dated tall/big guys (6'1-6'6 usually) because I found their size attractive. It's nice to feel like a petite little thing with your man! When I finally met my fiance in person (we met on an online dating site) we both looked a lot different than we do now. He is 5'9 and was only about 150 pounds at the time, wheras I am 5'4 and was about 155 pounds then. I was immediately put off. We continued to talk though, and even started dating but I honestly was not all that physically attracted to him. He started running less, lifting more and eating more, and now is about 180 and all muscled up, and I am now in the 116-118 range usually... big flip there! I am much more attracted to him now that we reversed roles a bit.
That might sound shallow, but I obviously love him and his personality is what mattered to me... but now I also dig how he looks much more.

Krampus - I'm sorry the BF is going through some hard times. It does make it difficult because it sort of limits what you two can do together. It *shouldn't*, and we've all seen those articles about "dating on a budget" and blah blah blah, but c'mon... it's hard... lets be real. I'm sure things will swing up for him soon.
Glad you got back on track and had some clean eats! :) It always makes me feel better, even if I am having to fight off some serious cravings that first day back OP.

Philana - Whoot whoot, nicely done! It's always a relief to see that weight come back down. All is right in the world again. :) What isn't a relief is all that school stuff... I can relate. I'm trying to catch up after way too much educational procrastination myself. The hardest part is just facing up to it, and you did that. The rest is cake! (Mmmm, cake.... - sorry, ignore me...)

CrazyGurl - Aww, dang! LOL I hope you feel better soon!

DORIAN - Get your fine *** back in here woman!!