Hope I don't get flamed for this one.
As some of you may recall, I eat more than I would like to on workdays because I have a very physical job (spent five hours yesterday running a floor buffer on top of my regular work) and if I don't eat a sustaining breakfast and lunch I run out of energy and start feeling nauseous and headachey, and it's hard to keep going when I feel sick.
Now, though, I'm starting to wonder if those feelings are all in my head.
Why? Because of Laurie. Laurie is a woman who got called back to my department after being laid off from another department last winter. Under the union rules laid off employees have to be recalled to the first available job opening, which is how she ended up in custodial (formerly she worked in housekeeping). While she was out of work she lost over sixty pounds. That's sixty+ pounds since February.
And she's still losing weight. She told me she's doing it on a low carb plan, that she eats no grains, starches or sweets and limits her fruit to one serving a day. She doesn't eat lunch.
Every week she looks a little thinner. Right now she weighs in the mid 130s but she looks thinner than that. In spite of her low food intake she has no problem doing her job.
If she keeps it up in a month or so she will weigh less than me. She's only an inch taller than I am and right now in my eyes she looks like she's about the same size as me even though she says she's a size 10 which was my starting size.
I guess I want to say that I'm jealous because I've been permanently stuck at five pounds to goal and this girl is losing weight like there's no tomorrow. I can't use the excuse of needing the fuel to work because she's doing the same job on half the calories. If she can do it I should be able to as well.
I feel so confused and defeated right now.