n00b: saying hello
hello everyone,
after reading some threads on here, i decided this is probably place for someone like me. i am trying to set my weight at my ideal (120lbs). but, my love for sugar-filled foods is keeping me away from my goals. i am kind of losing patience with myself. i consume my dear foods in private, when nobody is watching (my DH can hear me unwrap a candy from miles away, i swear).
even at my lowest weight, i was never really happy about the way i looked. or maybe i was happy, but i felt like nobody really thought i looked good, even at my highest moments of self-satisfaction. boyfriends have insulted my appearance many times, on many different levels, and for some time, i believed the *******s. i had the stigma of ugly following me from early childhood, and i thought losing weight or getting toned resolved this problem. but it didn't.
now i am fine with my appearance, and mature enough to accept who i am. but the little demon is still scratching in the background, sending messages of self-doubt.
am i nuts??
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No you're not nuts!
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