Just putting a capital of my thread.

Hey, Silk.....Don't have a lot of time....Hope you're ok this morning. Good job with thread. Next time.....all you need to do is go to the bottom of your post & click on "edit". You can change your thread title any way you need to....or your message! In fact...You can even delete the thread! If you want to delete the one without the capital....go back into it....click "edit"....click "delete"....& only this thread will be here. Be sure it's that post, though, or you'll delete this one! hehe

Have a great day!!!!

Hi Angel, I can't tell you how much I look forward to receiving your messages. You sound like a fun person and a great friend.

I am going to get my hair cut and eyebrows waxed tomorrow as I am starting to look like an old woman. I was 57 in April but some days I feel like 77 I don't have very many days anymore when I feel younger then I am. I used to but not lately.

We had quite a severe thunder storm today but tonight is beautiful, I guess we need the rain to make the flowers grow.

Have a good day, take care.

Silk

Hi Silk..... I'm called Bubbly & Perky...all the time! I get down & depressed like anyone else. I just try my best to not show it, & I feel better if I smile!!

My dad was a joker & cut up...I think I took after him a lot on that. I guess that's one reason I enjoy the images so much.

Anyway....hope the weather is better. It got really bad here yesterday. I was alone, & kinda scared!

I weigh tomorrow.....so I'm drinking a lot of water....guess I'll be up all night!! It'll be worth it though, if I can lose a little more weight this week. I'm 54, so we're close to the same age. I'm told I don't look my age....I sure do feel it, though!

Have a good evening....talk to you tomorrow.

Angel, good luck on your weigh-in today, I'm sure you will do just fine. I didn't use to look my age although this past year has taken its toll and I think I could easily pass for older.

It was three weeks on Tuesday since my brother passed away and I think the reality of never seeing him again has just started to hit me.

However. it is a beautiful morning and I am going to take a page out of your book today and think positive thoughts all day.

My husband is off work tomorrow at noon as he is on summer hours and we are going to go for a drive and have supper out somewhere so I am looking forward to that.

I went to visit a friend last night who had just returned from a trip out to B.C., it certainly is beautiful country in the west, I hope we can get out there again before we are too old to enjoy the scenery.

I will talk to you later, have a good day.

Silk

Good morning Silk.... I'm glad you're going to take advantage of the beautiful day! It'll do you a lot of good. It's ok to let the loss of your brother bring you to thinking & remembering. We need to go through the grieving. You're doing well, though, to try to do something positive in the meantime. I'm praying for you.

Well, I lost 3 lbs this week. I thought I had lost. The two days taking care of step-dad....I had very little time to eat. In fact, I found myself having to lean to the wall a couple of times. I know I shouldn't get that hungry....but the circumstances hindered. That's the hard way to lose! Anyway, it's gone & I'm finally in the 150's. Went from 184 lbs to 159 lbs so far.


I'll check on you later today. Yours is the first post I look for each day!!

Angel, congratulations on your weight loss that is terrific. I am trying to drink a lot of water, sometimes I don't even think about it and then I remember that you said to drink lots of water and I choose that instead of a pop or juice.

Never in my wildest dream did I ever imagine that I would weigh 240 lbs. I use to be appalled to think I would hit the 200 mark and now it just seems to hopeless.

I was remarried 8 years ago and since that time I have gained 62 lbs. and I feel so bad about it. It seems the more I dwell on it the more weight I gain. It scares me both because of the medical aspect and my self esteem is nil.

I am seeing a dietician on Aug. 18, 2003 regarding my diabetes and then I will be weighed once a month so that should give me some incentive to work at it as I am so unhappy with the way I look and feel.

Well, I am heading for the shower now and then downtown to do some errands, I am looking after Benny again this afternoon so that should keep me busy.

Take care

Silk

Hi Silk.....Hope you had a good day of shopping.

I spent a large part of the day trying to get into the forum. Something must have been wrong. I got worried it was my computer. Right after I bought it, the monitor shot! I'm a little paranoid now.

So, since I couldn't talk, I played. lol I made a Homepage for anyone who wants to see a pic of me & view my weight loss stats. I wish I had "before" & "after" pics, like others have...but I don't. I am planning to put more in later, though.

You might want to try this, sometime, if you haven't already. It's good therapy. I have a large Christian website that I work on a lot. I didn't want it posted here as my web page, though. Didn't want anyone to think I was trying to force anything on them. It's very enjoyable....people from all over the world have come & signed my guestbook.

Yes, drink a lot of water! I'm not drinking as much as I was. Gotta do better! Practice what I preach! Pop & juice have a lot of the wrong things in them. The pop will retain fluid, also! I found a list of reason why we should drink water while dieting.....I'll look it up & post it for you.

I'll be glad when Happy Canuk comes back. I miss her! Hope she's having a good time & has good check ups.

Gotta go....talk to you tomorrow!

Hi Angel, it turned out I had an terrible day. I spent most of the afternoon crying and was miserable. I went to bed at 9:00 p.m. because I couldn't stand myself.

I got my haircut but I don't like it, I feel that I weight 400 lbs. and look just awful.

It feels like I have no control over anything anymore. I apolgize for being such a downer but I am in a bad place right now.

Take care
Silk

Oh Silk.....I'm so sorry you're down. I'm sure your hair looks a lot better than you think. Remember....it will grow back.

I'm sure it was just the reminder of what day it was that made you blue. You know you're not that big, or awful!

You're probably just really starting with your grieving. Try to recognize what it is. It's alright....you should. Take your time & do what you need to do. If you want to cry, then do it. If you want to scream....do that too! But, go through it, & don't hold it back. Yes, it's a bad time to go through....I've been there.

I wish I could give you a real hug.......

I hope today goes better for you....

Angel, thanks for being there, I am going through a horrible time right now and it doesn't matter how much I try I can't seem to shake this feeling of helplessness.

I have always been a pretty postitive person but right now I just can't seem to get a grip on things.

As I said yesterday, Bob is through work today at noon and we are going somewhere for a drive and supper so maybe that will pick me up. I feel sorry for him as I have been a real downer lately.

I will write you tonight when we get home and I hope to not be such a pain.

Take care

Silk

Silk.......get this in your head.....you are NOT a pain! You can't help your feelings. I told you when you first started posting that it would be good for you to come here & say whatever you need to say. My advice has not changed. I'm not going anywhere. I'll go through it with you.....I'm here to listen to whatever you need to say. I was just trying to encourage you to not be down on yourself. You are a good person...who loved her brother. You're hurting....& will go through a lot of emotions.

I hope the drive today will help. I'm sure your husband understands your feelings, also. I'm not very good with words. What I feel in my heart doesn't always come out the way I mean for them to. Do know that I'm thinking of you, & praying for you.

Looking forward to tonight's post....to see how your day went.
Take care of yourself.

Hi Angel, the ride did help, I think just getting out of the house on such a beautiful day was what I needed.

As soon as we got home I told my husband I have to check the computer to see if Angel has wrote today.

It does help to talk to you as I don't like to talk to the family as we all just get upset and although we lean on each other it is good to talk to someone who understands where I am coming from and hopefully it doesn't bring you down.

I will check in with you tomorrow.

Have a good weekend.

Take care
Silk

Hi Silk.....Glad you enjoyed your drive today. It was a beautiful day here, also. I worked at the station. My husband worked on the house. I'm beginning to see a little progress, bless his heart.

It's fine that you come to talk to me. You won't bring me down. Of course, I feel for you.....but I try to stay uplifted. It makes me feel good that you have trusted me with your pain enough to talk to me. I found an ecard I wish I had kept....if I come across it again, I'll copy it here. It's about being a friend, & if you cry...I'll cry with you.

There have been so many times in my life when I needed someone to just sincerely listen to what I had to say. No advice was needed....just listen, & comfort. I have felt for a long time that was what I was meant to do. For I know the need....being there, before, myself. That's what made me create my website (not the one here). A lot of people have come there & not only signed the guestbook, but emailed me needing to talk. There are so many needing someone to just listen to them.

You know, I used to think people were crazy for paying a psychiatrist to just listen to them.....but after I kept trying to talk my problems out with friends, I understand more. They mean well, but couldn't listen to me, for cutting in to tell their problems.

Well....I really got started, didn't I? LOL Looks like I was needing to talk tonight!

I hope you have a very peaceful evening & sleep well tonight.

Hi Angel, well I had a very interesting night, last night when I went to the bathroom there was a lot of blood in my urine. I had a hysterectomy 19 years ago so I was quite alarmed.

I went to our local hospital and they said I have a bladder infection so maybe that is why I haven't been able to cope well these past few days.

My back was really bothering me and I thought it was because of my weight gain (which probably has a lot to do with it) however, they have me on antibiodics to I am sure I will feel better in a couple of days.

Your husband must really have his hands full rebuilding your home, I can't imagine how hard that must have been for the both of you.

Take care and write soon, thanks again for your encouragment.

Silk