The Bulima battle begins
 

Well Hello everyone. Today i woke up and decided i needed to make a few changes.....ahheeemmm....35lbs to be exact. I cant belieave i let mself go once again. Depression is a *****. Ive been struggling with aneroxia but mostly bulima for about 5 or 6 years now. Its time to stop. its such a discusting habit you know. I want to do this the right way and be happy about myself again. Besides, who wants to spend their life with their head in the toilet. Its weird. When i was at my worst...nobody could make me stop. At times it was like all i had. My little seceret. Its funny how your brain works. i actually would search for pro-eating disorder websites. you have to want it for yourself. YOu have to want to change. And i do this time. Im hoping to find someone who is maybe in the same boat. It would be nice to have a partner to fight this disease with. someone that understands, no matter what you do, it will always be there. nagging, telling you your fat, telling you nobody likes a fat person. you are nothing. I think having someone to voice over the internal negitivity would be a positive. we could lift eachother up. let me know if you that person.:hug:

:welcome: WJ

I think its wonderful that you are beginning a healthy life style WHOOT! WTG!!!

I think you'll find a lot of support from the Chicks on these boards...check it out. You've definitly come to the right place.

http://www.3fatchicks.com/forum/forumdisplay.php?f=64

Hugs and kisses to you !!!!

Welcome WJ. So glad you are here. I have never been bulimic, mostly because I am physically unable to make myself throw up. I have tried, just doesn't happen. Anyway, we all understand depression here, and I can relate to the voice in your head that tells you that you are fat, etc. Just never give up.

Welcome to the forums, WJ. Please come join us also at the Chicks in Control forum. (Leenie posted the link). We are all food addicts in varying forms there and share our highs and lows. The girls are very supportive and encouraging, and you will fit right in.

And please stay away from the Pro-Ana/Mia websites. They are toxic!!

Hey girlie. I also struggle with bulemia. Mine started in HS about 5 or 6 years ago. I get in this mode where I think I can eat anything and then if I throw it up it will be okay. I start again stop again, but it always seems to come back. I just struggled with this for the last three weeks and decided to stop again on Monday. I know how hard it is. And, ever since I've been doing this, I've gained more weight. But, I guess that's how it works! If you need anything let me know because I honestly understand the struggle. Hope you start feeling better.