Hi everyone, Hope you are all having a great start to the week!

Was a quiet weekend. Hubby finally made it home Sat night and was here all day Sun. It felt that we did tons of laundry as he was out of clothes in his truck and I had been ignoring it in the house. Took a stab at our taxes yesterday, I hate doing taxes. I have to get together with my mom and try to figure out how to claim his meals when he is on the road. I've never done that before so we have two years of log books to go through, yuck!

The sun is out and the sky is clear and beautiful so a wonderful start to spring. And the snow is even starting to melt off of things. The only downer is the grader went by and I have to clear the end of the driveway before I can back out. We had a big "speed bump" there before so I can't ignore it anymore.

Anyway I should get going and clear that and get dinner started as I just realize that DD14 has judo practice tonight. I wasn't planning on going anywhere today, but surprise!

Take care everyone,
K

Hey yo. I hope everyone is well. I've been really busy recently. I did too much exercise the last couple days and my calves and feet are hating me for it. Ouch. The good news: I burned 500 calories Sunday and 300 today! The bad news: I am in pain and I'm having an "I feel fat" day. Bleh. Still, all is well. I'm going to New York soon and I SO can't wait! Oddly enough, though, the thing I'm looking the most forward to is buying post cards and sending them to my friends and host family in Japan, my friends in Germany, and to other people who I feel need a post card. I love getting post cards so I'm sure they'll love receiving them! When my German friends sent me cards from France I was elated.

I'd better get back to the homework. Talk to you later <3

i had healthy lunch and breakfast so that's good but the fatigue is getting to me. i wish i could get rid of the constant aching muscles and headaches. other than that doing ok. helps that it is wonderfully sunny

new york sounds exciting <3 i'd love to go there too altho it's a little further away lol

hi buddly - i don't know anyone that likes taxes ugh ugh. hope your week goes well

Hi guys :hug:

Sorry I haven't wrote, but things have been a little hectic. I had another terrible weekend full of Cymbalta side effects argh. I weighed in on Saturday and saw no weight loss and was so upset. I then realized it was most likely due to the fact that I hadn't went to the bathroom in 5 days.. again. I had to use laxatives.. again. I was so mad yesterday that I ended up not taking my meds.. boy did I pay for that today. I will NEVER do that again! I did talk to my pdoc about reducing the mg by half and he said to go ahead.. he doesn't seem to care all that much :( Hopefully this will take care of my bathroom "problem".

Between that and my dad being sick, I haven't had a break. He was having terrible stomach pain and could barely urinate. Found out his prostate was enlarged and the urologist mentioned cancer. He took a PSA test and we had to wait 5 nerve racking days. Thank God, his test came back normal. Now my dad has a cold. My therapist says I need to distance myself from him, mostly cause he calls me 12 times a day and it makes me anxious cause he's so miserable all that time. He's also on ADs, but they don't seem to be working... I'm completely rambling.. I'm so sorry! :dizzy:

The good news is that I've lost 25lbs since Jan. 9, that makes me happy :D I just want to keep it up. You guys are a huge help, and while I don't post much, I read all your posts and they keep me motivated. I just wanted you all to know you guys are the best! :hug:

Hey Lessthan - Have you ever been to NY before? I grew up there. I go back every month to visit my dad and brother. What part are you going to? Have fun :)

:hug: Candi

Hi everyone,
Just dropping in for a quick hello. Got that feeling of "doom" hanging around right now and I have no idea why as things are looking fine. My poor DD18 was having some anxiety last night about her future. So I told her to remember F.R.O.G (Fully rely on God) (adivce I have to remember) She seems better this morning. I think we all need to get out for a nice walk as DD18 didn't get to sleep till 4am, DD15 was awake till after 2am and I was awake till after 3am. I was tavisting (DD15 was itchy) and rescue remedying all over the place last night!! Sorry that I'm rambling, I do that in "real" life as well, it seems to help me feel better to talk everything out and around.:shrug:

Lessthan, I hope you have a great trip and yes postcards are great to receive.

Candi, hope you are feeling better. Why don't you try a tablespoon of psyllium husks in some juice everyday with lots of water? I find that gives bulk without the cramps and pains of laxatives. And congrats on the 25 lb loss, that is great! :bravo:

Hi Sweetpea, hope you are feeling better.

Anyway I hope everyone has a great day and take care all,
K

Oh Keira i completely understand. it's it awful the way depression can be so illogical. things can be fine in your outer world but your inner world says different!!!

my stress levels are through the roof and for no reason. I felt tired but ok then someone sent me something to edit and it was just awful. Wasn’t even grammatically correct and had strange language like “one has to” who speaks like that. The more I looked at it the more stressed I got. I couldn’t stand it. I can’t believe a small thing like that could send me cuckoo so I made an apptmt with doc for Friday 4pm. Now I need to untie jazz. She jumped the fence this morn so I tied her up so I wouldn’t have to keep running outside to check on her. She could get run over!!! She just stands in front of cars. Right off to bed for a wee lie down. Lovely sunny day but I need some shut eye. Or maybe I could lie outside?? I’ll sort it out. I have learned I am not very resilient to stress at this stage. Have not been for years so I guess it will take a while to get it back. No more pushing me. just take it easy...

still struggling with sleep. i wake every couple of hours and i never stop dreaming. my mind doesn't get a chance to shut down

Candula - I didn't know constipation was a side effect of the meds. is that a permanent side effect or is it supposed to come right over time??? i guess you could eat lots of bran lol

have you thought about going to another pdoc? some doctors are just so blase about side effects. so you have diarrhoea every day? your breasts are leaking? you have night mares every night? is it really so bad my doc asks, just keep taking it she ways. well DOH! honestly it's hard to get one who understands that sometimes the side effects are not worth it. hope you sort something out soon.

Hey all. I'm doing pretty weel today. Frustrated with my dog, though! We had new neighbors move in over the weekend, with two dogs who stay outside. My dog HATES other dogs, so everytime I let her out she is attacking the fence, barking ferociously. Between the three of them, they have already loosened 3 fence boards!! I'm off to Lowe's now to pick up some plywood. I'm just gonna cover the whole thing! Like to see her try to get through that.

I had my massage today. It was magnificent! I'll have to make that a reward from time to time.

I'm really trying to get the weight loss going. I keep up like this, they are going to have to cut a hole in the wall to get me out!

Hope everyone's day is going well. I'll check in again later.

Hi everyone, I just wanted to check in and say hi. I'm in a blah mood and not too chatty. I know you all can relate in blah moods for no reason. I just want to hit something and I'm not mad at anyone. How can that be my logical mind asks??? Another beautiful side effect of depression. :( If I'd have any brains I'd get my butt of this chair and exercise. I know I'd feel better. But I just don't want to. :)

Marcie, glad to hear your doing a bit better. Dogs, the loves of my life can be trying but it has dawned on me that my dogs are way easier than my kids. Way easier. (I know SweetPea, Jazzy is another story). Anyways, three barking dogs would be a bit trying. Good luck with it and take a few swacks at the nails in the plywood for me. You know, reward by osmosis.

Candi, I started adding fiber capsules to my daily regimen for regularity. Most of the time it really helps and I haven't had to resort to laxatives or anti diarrhea meds. Takes about 6 weeks for the system to straighten out but it does help.

Buddly, I definitely feel the "doom". Most of the time for me, it evaporates quickly and nothing happens. But today it's there. Perhaps our moons are lined up crookedly. :)

SweetPea, you did ask earlier what I did and I remembered over the weekend that someone asked and I couldn't remember who and then I forgot again. So I'm sorry. I'm just an airhead.

To answer your question. I'm a Database Manager and Webmaster for a school district. I have the ultimate fun of playing with computers daily. Oaky, now I'm being sarcastic. In may ways, my job has made me hate computers. But basically I love them. Web Programming with databases is my newest fun and I really like it. The parts of my job that I hate are the politics that go along with any organization. If people were logical, I'd be okay. But they're not and most of the times their brains are shut off and I get aggravated. So the politics I hate, the job I love. Hence, good days and bad days. Today happened to be a bad one.

Okay, off to find something to do. Perhaps a few punches on my punching bag. But then again, my hands hurt after that. Cause and effect. :(
Marie

Marie-I can so relate to wanting to hit something. There are days when I would love to punch the wall, but I know it would hurt me more than the wall!!

me too!
 

Originally Posted by Marciet:
Marie-I can so relate to wanting to hit something. There are days when I would love to punch the wall, but I know it would hurt me more than the wall!!

oh me too LOL
i just want to scream at and hit everything. i'm a bit agitated today so went to bed for a few hours. up now going to library... catch you later

Hi,

Just thought I would check in for a quick Hello to you all! :) not a lot to report here.....

Am looking forward to my little break away end of next week, off to London for 4 days!

hi alison enjoy your break!

Marie that sounds like interesting work but I can totally relate to the politics. I always maintain I'd be fun if i could operate in a bubble without people and politics and policies and all that other stuff getting in my way. somehow i don't think you're an airhead!

i have decided to do the speech comp on saturday so now i have 2 days to prep the speech. it's one of those things i have good moment during the day when i think yeah that would be ok i can do it. then the other 23 hours i think oh crap what a lot of effort and wtf am i going to talk about. i'm going to read some of my old diaries and see if i can think of something

i want to try and think of some funny manic episodes in my life or something along those lines. i would love to have lots to drink (relax guys just water and ribena) but trouble is it interferes with what little sleep i have. so have to go to bed thirsty!

Morning everyone, I didn't punch the punching bag. Actually I felt better after writing my post. Not great, but I wasn't blah. Today at work I'm blah again but I think I figured out that it's because on Friday at 4:00 I officially start my spring vacation. YEAH!!! I just don't want to work. There's a part of me that want to go home sick (mental health day?) and enjoy the day. But then my damn work ethic blows that out of the water. Pooh.

SweetPea, you should post your speech outline here and let us see. That would be cool.

Marcie, I walked by my punching bag last night and really thought about hitting it a few times, but the urge was gone. Some nights I do use it. What I'd really like is to move it to my office. Unfortunately it is heavily weighted with 400 pounds of sand and too hard to move. But I think if it was in my office, I'd be punching it regardless that it would hurt my hands. :)

Hi there Mazarin. Have fun on your holiday.

Well, I should work.
Marie