Dealing with Depression and trying to lose weight Again.
 

Hello.. I am a new and was going to post under the chat for today, but felt to new. I have been in and out of depression since I was 13. I haven't been depressed since I met my husband.. and now that we are seperating I am starting to feel it again and it really hit last night when I found out that he has a girlfriend at his work. I feel completely hopeless, and sad. but other then that.. I am usually a wonderful person to talk to. or so I am told. I have been trying to lose weight for 18 months now ever since I had my daughter. I loose and then something goes wrong and a binge in a bad way and then gain more and the lose and then gain. So far I have been doing pretty good. Exercising more and eating better but the seperation and hearing things about my husband that I wish I didn't hear is making things worse and it's all that I can think of. I am at the point where I have to force myself to eat or force myself not to eat alot and I hate feeling that way. I don't know what to do anymore. :?: I feel like I am on a rollercoaster and i can't get off :dizzy:

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Stephanie

Sorry to hear you're having trouble. Keep posting and chatting! You're never too new to be a part of the community. Having people to talk with can really help. Also, do you journal? Check out the skinny daily post thread -- she's got excellent info on journaling.

Ashlie: Sorry you're having such a bumpy ride right now. Don't have any sage advice to offer but be assured that these feelings won't last forever and that better days are ahead.

Stephanie
Hello & Welcome.
Just try to remember no situation is hopeless!
Concentrate on all the good in your life because we all have some good!
;)
People Care!

Cin~

Well yesterday was just an awful day. I binged badly. I think I had 3000 calories by the time I was done with the day and was completely down. Today went better tho at least half of it. I did alot of packing. I am not moving out for another month yet but I figured i would get a head start on it. I found concrete proof the my husband technically has a girlfriend but they are waiting until their spouses move out before they do anything physical or some crap like that. Oh well what can I do. I asked him to be honest with me. I don't want to know who she is.. All I wanted to know was if he is moving on to just tell me. Let me deal with it. Which after being on the phone for 4 hours with friends I finally care but don't. I still love him and want to be with him BUT I need to deal with my and everything that is me before I can try to get him back into my life if that is even a possiblity in the future. I am not hoping for it atm. This is just me babbling away.

Yes I used to keep a journal which i wrote in every night when I was a depressed nut case in high school. and I had started one again when my husband and i started having issues this summer. I was thinking of starting one again and just writing and when I felt better at some point building a fire and burning it.

I got a quote from somewhere on this website that said....
"Courage is being afraid but then doing what you have to do anyway"

I am complete afraid and scared right now. I have never really done anything on my own. I have always had family to fall back on when I needed them. I am 1700 miles away from them all (thank goodness). They would be driving me insane right now if I told them what was going on. I am not ready todeal with them yet on the subject of my seperation and depression. I know i have to try and I know I will succeed with this. I have to wonderful children that will get me through anything. and a bunch of wonderful people on this site.

Thanks everyone

Stephanie

Hi Stephanie,

Please know that you are not alone in your struggles. I really hope to see you on the daily thread and please don't feel "new" just jump in. Maybe we can make the rough time you are going through less bumpy :D

Hugs....

Stephanie - I just saw this thread for the first time today, and I just wanted to try to reach thru this computer screen and give you a great big hug!

please join us on the daily thread when you can.

(((((((((((hugs)))))))))))))
cathy