Hi
 

Every now and then I pop in and read your threads So I was wondering if I could join in every now and then
My Name is Kierie (its a lifetime nickname) I'm 28 and a newlywed I have battled depression since i was 9
Most people think I'm really outgoing and funny and the one I hate "you're always happy" at this point I want to tell people to pucker up to my posterior
I learned to eat away pain, which also translates to other quick fixes like shopping or sex (sorry if it's TMI) I was on Paxil for about a year and while it helped my depression and anxiety it also made me crazy and heavier one minute i'd be ok and the next TOONSVILLE
I don't have insurance right now b/c DH's company are CHEAP SOB and want $600 a month for insurance
On another lovely note my menstrual cycle (this really is Totally TMI post sorry!) is all screwed up so I'm constantly on a hormone roller coaster
I'm going to planned parenthood on Saturday to try a different prescription to control it and hopefully not make me nuts or fat
I constantly feel like I'm in a black hole and while DH wants to help he doesn't really have the tools to do it
he had clinical depression himself and is on meds
OH lol I forgot to mention I have a disability (that I'm fine with) but our apartment building is inaccessible (that I'm not fine with) So I can never get out by myself
I'm constantly at someone elses mercy and I HATE IT.
I don't think I've had a day without tears in the last week and a half
I'm totally out of control I want my independence back before I go crazy
Anyway thanks for the ears/eyes
Kierie

Kierie, welcome to this board !!

We would LOVE for you to join in. You really don't need an invitation, everyone is welcomed here. I know alot of folks suffer w/depression and are afraid and/or ashamed to talk about it. I find it really helps when you can talk to some one who understands or will just listen to you.

Congratulation on your new marriage :D

I'm looking forward to seeing you on the daily.

HUGS !!!!!

Leenie