Well this has certainly been a week.
Sometimes I think God gives us a kick in the pants. I got mine this week.
It's still stinging.
Many years ago, and I mean many... I used to go to a group ACoA. For those of you who are not familiar with the 12 step groups, it's Adult Children of Alcoholics. I don't know why I quit going. It was a good group. Perhaps I just wasn't ready. I couldn't do Step 3, which is:
Made a decision to turn our will and our lives over to the care of God as we understood Him.
It means letting go of control. Or what we think is control.
Long story... but with my son in rehab right now (he's doing day treatment and is home most evenings), I suddenly recalled ACoA while cooking supper earlier this week. It was one of those "aha" moments. I have never believed in coincidences, so I think this one of those God-kicks.
I can't find an active group locally (and no answer at the contact number, tho I will keep trying being that it's summer), but I've found an online meeting room and have been doing a lot of reading at that messageforum as well.
My back continues to get better. I had my 6th visit with physio today. I have permission to return to the gym, with modifications/reduced sets/ reduced time on elliptical, etc. and have to go slow. She says it could be a good 6 weeks til I'm back to where I was. Who knew washing and drying a car by hand could do this!
Anyway, I will go tomorrow and just do some cardio, some stretching, and a few of the exercises the physio gave me for my back. On Monday, I'll do some lower or upper body depending on how my back is. It's still sore, but at least it's bearable, and I haven't taken any pain killers for two days now.
Son has found a roommate. Things were tense there. He thought there was another one but it fell thru. Of course, in my usual controlling way, I am trying to get him to phone for apt while he has a guy lined up. And, what is it up here? The LONG WEEKEND!!!!
So we have to wait til Tuesday for more phoning, tho he will try some tomorrow.
I really have difficulty letting go... I catch myself a lot the past few days.
I have been lurking and praying for those with difficulties, as I pray for healing for myself... spiritually (and physically
). Each and every one of you ladies is special to me. I won't post individually to you all tonight, but know you are in my thoughts and prayers.
Twists & Turns
That turning my life and my will over to the God of my understanding is huge stuff. Most the time I am living in the I am powerless over food, and it makes my life unmanageable end. 
Take care!
