[flower123]

Been way off plan. Just have set up new counterproductive eating habits now. So there is nothing positive to report. Not even bothering to detail my food. However, it could be worse. I probably am 5 lbs above where I was last year. 10 lbs above where I would be when I would go to see my mother. lol, now she can see me all the time.

[Diana3271]

Flower You are still working through things so that's good. You will get to where you need to be in time.

[flower123]

Originally Posted by Diana3271

Flower You are still working through things so that's good. You will get to where you need to be in time.

Thank you. Blessings to you Diana <3

[flower123]

okay, this food thing is getting way out of control. Cannot do this alone secluded on a thread. Will have to figure out another tactic. I am way into a new eating pattern that is not okay. I have to stop it now. Even though the habit of it is set in. Enough is enough!! Sitting here with a gut is not okay.

I made 4 dark chocolate things today. melted bittersweet Belgian chocolate. Roasted peanuts. Granola and diced dried apricots all mixed together. Then spread like a cookie shape on wax paper. They were supposed to be for dessert for a friend and me tomorrow. I ate mine tonight. I cannot do this alone. No way. Its gotten a lot worse in the past several days. Maybe since I found out my aunt has cancer. That really hit me hard after the death of my mother. They were very close friends for more than 70 years. Scared I will lose my aunt. Have lost too many people now. Almost no one left.
food today:

coffee 200
hot chocolate 160?
popchips 350
watermelon 200
pint of halo gold top low cal vegan ice cream 360
shrimp with coconut aminos, onion, sesame oil garlic and ginger 300
salad with low fat feta and low cal blue cheese dressing. 250
2 chocolate candy things written about above. I do not even want to think about calories
I am on a one way road to weight gain **** and I need to turn it around

[flower123]

Writing daily intake here is not helping. Eating been increasingly out of control for 3 months. So I am switching to the daily accountability thread where i hopefully will feel more pressure to stay accountable. My hope is that in 3 weeks time I will be back down to where I feel good in my clothes and more comfortable in my body. the cost will be higher for the food I buy. But then, I will be buying less food. So I am hoping to even save. I am hoping this is the last time I will be posting on this thread.

[flower123]

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reported to admin

[Diana3271]

Originally Posted by flower123

reported to admin

I also reported it last night.

[fitnessfreak2019]

Sorry to hear this. I hope you are feeling better. Great food choice!

[flower123]

Originally Posted by fitnessfreak2019

Sorry to hear this. I hope you are feeling better. Great food choice!

thanks. Wishing you well!

[VermontMom]

Hello Flower!! I am so sorry to hear the struggling in your words

[flower123]

Originally Posted by VermontMom

Hello Flower!! I am so sorry to hear the struggling in your words

thanks Holly. It will be okay. The hardest part is the only remaining family member is unsafe for me to rely on in any way. And he's the executer and in charge of everything. Digestive system so bad (because of it?) that I can only have liquids. So it will be a great way to lose the weight I gained. I read the dr office summary of my appointment yesterday. Oops, it had my weight written on it. While it was shocking to see, it's only about 5 lbs higher than what I want.
Im hoping the forced non solid diet will help bring down those lbs.

today
coffee 250
pureed carrot soup with bone broth and better than bouillon 300?
Total for day: 550

[flower123]

Today digestive system not quite as bad. Had very fattening foods

coffee 70
trader Joe's peanut butter cups 540
halo ice cream 360
carrot 150
bone broth powder 150
rice 210
total 1480

[flower123]

Today:
early morning mindless eating: 2 summer squash with butter 170
coffee 150
carrot and squash soup with bone broth 400
rice 180
butter 60
halo top ice cream 360 (very strange color)
total: 1320

[flower123]

Today I feel better about the calories i ate

coffee 200?
4 chocolate covered malted peanutbutter balls. 200?
cooked apple slices 100?
Carrot soup with zucchini squash, bone broth powder, better than bouillon, and a bit of sesame oil. 420
basmati rice 180
Total 1100

[flower123]

Been not able to eat solid food. Sticking to puréed carrot soup with powdered bone broth.
Peach day was around 450 calories. Today, the 5th day I added I. Some oil and rice.
The GI inflammatory condition causes me to not lose weight. Have a Buddha belly. This is also linked to a viral infection that is tenacious. If I was losing weight while eating so little I would be happy. But I'm not. Just the GI pain. Went to dr. But there was only so much she could do. And I relapsed after that. So eating very light is my future.