(Late) April Ups and Downs Fighting Depression Thread
 

It is very late in the month but here is April's Ups and Downs thread! we are a small but mighty group that share the Ups and Downs of depressive states. Please feel free to join :welcome: and post as often as you wish.

a quick recap of the past couple weeks - Flower's mom passed on Sunday April 7th :hug: Flower, are you still in the Boston area to take care of things, or are you back home?

Lisa had to see a pulmonary specialist ...we are hoping any issues can be controlled :)

We also have Coop and Kathleen as our friends here! and always looking forward to meeting new people or having past visitors come back :)

My recap is the sad news that our family dog EddieDog died on Friday the 12th, we had taken him to the vet just the day before!! and he was FINE on the Sunday of that beginning week :( Downhill so fast. I really didn't think I could stop crying for the first 24 hours, and really didn't want to exist...but each minute/hour/day that goes by, it is not so painful. We will be looking for another shelter dog to adopt soon.

Spring is finally arriving here!! there is still snow in the woods, and in deep shaded places, but for the most part bye bye winter!! I am able to do some yard clean up, sticks and some raking.

I started exercising again :strong: I don't love doing it, but I recognize what it does for me and will try to stick to it.

have a good day, and i hope the sun is shining where you are! :sunny: (it isn't here but maybe it will come out later)

Thank you Holly.

:)

Lisa how are you? what is the weather like, where you are? I always like to hear about stuff like that :) Hope you are well! and your pets too.

Flower are you back home? I can't remember if you said you had to be away to take care of things due to your mother :hug:

Hello to everyone else :) Coop, Kathleen!

You all gave me so much support when I was griping about the challenging (for me) factory winter job...well I got a commendation yesterday, at the company quarterly meeting...for perfect attendance :rofl: it shows that you can do okay at a job if you just show up on time with a good attitude :D I received a $10 gas card which doesn't begin to cover what I spend on cold medicine and Puffs tissues to keep going to work, when I was sick! haha! But it was NICE to hear my work friends applauding me :) Just one more week!!!

Crummy weather here, typical New England spring weather, it is 44 degrees, completely overcast, damp, low clouds. At least it's not snowing!!!

We put in a call to a second local animal shelter, to ask about available dogs. The loss of Eddie is still a gaping hole in our lives.

have a good day :)

and I'm trying to memorize some simple phrases in Swahili, we have a couple gentlemen at work who hardly speak English, and I thought it would be nice to say "hello" or "good afternoon" to them in their language. I hope I don't mispronounce and insult anyone :rofl: "Habara za mchana" should be 'good afternoon". I hope :rofl:

Welcome back flower!!!! You were gone a long time :( Of course you would deeply grieve for your mother. and the hurt even deeper due to how she treated you. I can expect a huge plunge after the channeled guide experience...but maybe it is necessary. that we have to plunge deepest into grief before we can eventually climb up and out again.

I am sure you will quickly lose any unwanted weight that was unfortunately part of the visit. Size 2, WOW that is tiny!!!

Thank you so much for the expressed emotions about my EddieDog. I am both trying to push down any thoughts of him :( so that I don't cry all the time, and at the same time, trying to celebrate his memories. Ack!!! both make my cry. My husband is PUSHING to adopt another dog. Yes I want another fur baby, and yes we will adopt from a shelter, but he is ready to take ANY dog. I want to select!! We can't have a super active dog because it wouldn't be fair to the dog. And face it, if you're going to adopt, you should pick a dog you really want, not adopt just because they are available.

I have one more week of the factory job :) and yes it was gratifying to be recognized for something :rofl: and yes the summer job is lined up, the Chef called me, I have contacted the front of the house (FOH) lady and am lined up to work in the Dining room for the first 3 nights as i always do...this will be my 19th season there!!! getting excited about it. Just typed out and printed my list of needed goods/items for the kitchen.

Also getting excited about summer and growing things, though the weather has been VERY uncooperative. Cold, wet. Some snowflakes last night!! today the sun is FINALLY coming out and it is a blistering 46.9 degrees, haha!! but I am going to put layers on and go out in the yard and do SOMETHING. At least pick up sticks or crap that has blown around. Possibly rake a bit though the places that look the worst are still soggy.

Husband has been diligent with getting seedlings ready for at least a month, we have zinnieas, Burpees Best Petunias, moss roses, all doing so well under the grow lights. I have been around the yard and the 6 or 7 rhubarb plants have been 'up' for a couple weeks now, and I see the Lemon Balm mint plant, and my tons of regular mint, and some hardy pansies; and the red shoots of the peonies just barely coming through. Old friends!!! :)

Flower, I have noticed before but i love the "kindness" phrase in your signature. So true. I try to be kind to people..someone one said almost sarcastically to me, 'you're always so nice Holly'. That was kind of sucky because it sounded like they thought it was a bad thing. I bought a box of soft Puffs for a co-worker because she was using the horrid sandpaper tissues at work and i thought maybe she couldn't afford the more pricey tissues. I am trying to learn simple Swahili phrases to greet the men at work who don't speak much English. What is wrong about trying to make someone's day a little nicer?

I miss everyone who has not been able to visit here for a while!!! :hug: