November 2017 Ups & Downs Support Group Thread
 

Kathleen!!! I am happy and relieved to see your post. Thanks for starting November.

Holly, I think you will always resent if you pay more than your share. I have a friend who has resented her two sisters since their mother's funeral- long story short, they got the house, car, bank accounts and she got 1/3 the funeral bill.

Lisa, I think the main thing with the diet is to always eat protein with a carb to keep your levels balanced, and eat smaller meals more often. Be careful with grapes as they are very high in sugar.

I met with the contractor who will not be able to get here until January. I am doing one bathroom over completely, and changing a half bath to a 3/4 by adding a walk-in shower. I am getting rid of the tile floors and replacing them with laminate, and he is going to have to put in sub floors for some reason. I chose new toilets, sink and vanities, flooring, lighting, etc. I was hoping it would be done quickly. Oh, well.

I am still trying to stay positive, but the loneliness sets in with the darkness when we change time. I have been exercising a lot as it does help my mood, I am volunteering more and joining a second bookclub. I have also been baking a lot- not such a good thing- - I have gained three pounds in two weeks....

It has been very cold on the Cape the past few days...no snow yet, but I thought for sure it was about to snow yesterday.

Hi Coop.

Hello to everyone else.......I would love to hear how some of our original members are....Fi, Li'l Turtle, etc. I hope they are all doing well.

Take care, my friends.

Monica

Oh man we were still in October weren't we :devil:

thanks Kathleen! so good to see you here :) :hug: hope to see you again SOON!!

Monica wow i don't know what else you can do to occupy yourself, you are doing everything you can to help yourself and that is great!! :hug: Hey, are you going to go with heated floors for the bathrooms?? I don't have that wonderful luxury but have experienced it and it is heavenly in cold weather!!

Hi Lisa :hug: and everyone else!!

Monica, I know I saw Fi posting on other threads after she left ours. Yes it would be nice to know if Li'l Turtle is OK! and everyone else!!

had a doctor's check up yesterday, I still could lose some weight according to his *&$5^#@$# charts!! :mad: but my BP is 120/80 and heartbeat, lungs are good.

OH!!! good news about my brother's apartment!! the agency said that the next tenant has NO furniture..so we can leave EVERYTHING!!! bed, 2 bureaus, 2 bookcases, table, TV, A/C...isn't that fantastic??? :carrot:

gotta get ready for work. Oh and it's 22 degrees and white outside, boooo. Lisa come get our snow please :D

It took someone 15 days to remember to start a new thread.


We're all getting old and forgetful. :( :(

Hi guys!

I wanted to pop up to say hi! My tablet broke, so I'm having to use an old one while it's fixed. It's being painfully slow, and my laptop isn't much better. I'm reading along might not do personals for another week!

Hi Coop, come back when you can. We'll keep the homefires burning.

Monica, I can't keep track of all that. I just keep the carbs as low as I can, try to keep the sugars down as much as I can and eat protein. I'm not a huge veggie person but I'm trying.

Holly, hey girl, how are you doing? How's work? How have your moods been?

Kathleen, thank you for starting the thread. How are you?? Miss seeing you post.


i need to look through my things and see if I managed to bring any chair exercise dvds with me.

My mood today has been kinda down. I really miss Jennifer a lot. It's hard not knowing when I will see her again. When I think about that I start to cry. It's just really hard not being able to get in my car and go see her. It breaks my heart.

I'll post again soon.

Hi friends :hug:

Hi Coop! sorry to hear of your tablet being busted, and how frustrating is painfully slow typing?! very! look forward to hearing from you, when you can :)

Lisa Oh it is so hard to be far from your children isn't it!! :( a hug for you :hug: My mood has been pretty good, every day I try to focus on the good in life, and how I'm trying my best. I do NOT like the white outside :devil: but I am glad I have brand new studded snow tires and all wheel drive to combat that.

ALMOST done with my brother's apartment, my husband and I went over on Saturday after work to do another 2 hour stint, it involved 5 trips across the street and down the alley to use the dumpster/cardboard recycling bins there. If my sister did a trip on her own :rolleyes: it would be great.

gotta get ready for work and I might have to shovel a path outside, yeah there's more than one inch and we like to keep up with it, once you walk/drive on the snow it packs down and it's there til May :devil: have a good day!!

I had one of those moments where I realised just how off I've been - it's a funny story, but upsetting at the same time! Our home insurance expired last November. In January I panicked because I hadn't renewed, so I sorted out insurance pronto. Yesterday I received a renewal quote - turns out I HAD sorted insurance last November, got quotes from several companies before doing so, then completely forgot about it all & took out another policy. I've had 2 insurance policies running on the apartment & I wasted the equivalent of $150.

When I think about it, I haven't felt right in years. The last time was about 6 years ago...

The good news is my tablet is fixed & I'll pick it up at the weekend.

I hope you all have a lovely Thanksgiving tomorrow!

Bleh, I feel like every time I come back here it's just to say that things are getting worse, and worse again, and to hope that "this time" I'll be able to get back on track. I can't believe that last year at this time, I was at the lowest weight I've been in over a decade, and now I'm back reaching towards my highest ;_;

I'm so disappointed in myself. And so disatisfied with my life...but feeling really stuck. I need to at least be on track with getting healthy again in order to engage in my life properly. It's just hard. Wah. :P

I hit 265 at the start of October. I have been about fifty/fifty good days and bad since then and made it down to 251 last week...but then payday hit and I started binging again, and I don't even want to look. Ugh. UGH.

I would like to commit to getting through the rest of the year without some trigger/binge foods because I've learned a hundred times over that I cannot manage them reasonably yet (maybe ever...and maybe who cares...because they're terribly unhealthy foods anyway. Grr.). I just have very little confidence in my ability to fix things right now. I can't believe how far backwards I've fallen.

Sorry for just swinging in to whinge. I'm hoping tomorrow will be okay and I can report some positive progress.

Happy Thanksgiving all! I hope you are having a lovely day!

Bookmark, I wonder if you'd benefit from a diet challenge to help break you binge habits. Something like "I quit sugar" or the "8 week blood sugar diet" - even just following a whole 30 plan? It could help you hit the reset button.

I'm a bit of a binger myself, but I did a month on Whole 30 & haven't fallen back into the bad habit since. This is the worst time of year for that sort of thing though!

Coop, I think it's kind of unsettling that you said you haven't felt right in so long! Do you think that's something a health professional should know about? Or do we 'chalk it up' to what all of us experience, the CRS disease :D: and I had a nice Thanksgiving, thank you!

Bookmark, I am sorry you are feeling so out of control about your life, that is not a fun feeling at all! please feel free to come here to vent whenever you need to.

holly I guess I'm hoping the nutritionist will help me feel right again - my doctor wouldn't know where to start if I went in complaining of feeling "off".

i a so incredibly tired tonight. I slept until 430 pm. It is now 550 pm and i'm ready to go to bed for the night.

I haven't posted lately because I've been ill. I have not had a period in almost a year.

I started my period last tuesday and have flooded every day since. It's been bad. I've been flooding through everything. Everytime I move, it lets loose. I have not been able to leave he house at all. I have to sit on pillows. I have 2 pair of jeans that get washed twice a day. I have to bathe every single day. I bleed all over the bathroom floor. Sorry to be so graphic. I just want you to understand. Today it seems to be a little better but I'm still unable to leave the house.

Now you know why I am so sleepy.

I love you all. Post and let us know how you are all right.

Originally Posted by Coop27:
holly I guess I'm hoping the nutritionist will help me feel right again - my doctor wouldn't know where to start if I went in complaining of feeling "off".

Yes, that sounds like a logical hope, that the nutritionist can help you, Coop! Yeah, I think any doctor would be very challenged to pinpoint feeling 'off'. But that's no way to live, is it!

Lisa, Oh man that is such a bother!!! and how it restricts you from leaving the house. Drink lots of liquids if you can! and hang in there :) :hug:

and HELLO to everyone else! :wave:

I had to shovel some sn*w (it's a four-letter word to me :devil: ) today and some more is coming down now. bleh :devil: However I was driving with my all wheel drive and my brand new expen$ive studded snows and had no trouble at all. woo hoo for that!!!

We are *almost* done with my brother's apartment!!! and thank goodness the rental agency is NOT breathing down our necks at ALL even though I am sure they are super eager to rent it to someone else ASAP.

The sale of the store is still a go! I am super-duper curious about the new owner and his plans. Will I still have a job there??? it sure might be nice to see what it's like to work there without the RB! :devil:

I just shoveled sn*w for 40 minutes :D well at least it counts as my exercise for the day! and I'm glad that physically I can do it.
hope everyone has a great day :cool:

Hello,

I'm not sure if anyone recalls, but I used to post in this thread earlier this year. I have been going through a pretty bad depression for quite some time and it has been worse this year than it has ever been. So I just kept to myself :( I always worry about dragging others down and feeling like my problems aren't "bad enough" to share with anyone in the world.

I'm really wanting to get better and really struggling. I hope its ok that I rejoin the group.
Tomorrow I go see my doctor to get a prescription that I rejected earlier this year. I didn't think I needed it and felt on and off that I wasn't really depressed.

Anyway I'm now thinking that is the way forward for me. I've meditated and journaled and tried distracting activities and things are still worse than ever. My brighter moments are dimmer than ever.

Some facts about me - I am married to a wonderful, supportive man. We do not have children. I'm currently working a very stressful job that can be somewhat toxic at times. I'm trying to balance my feelings regarding this with the fact that I've been having really obsessive thoughts. So maybe it's not as bad as I think ? Nonetheless I started job searching a couple of months ago and then stopped. I don't feel great about myself so it is hard to sell myself. I am also a long term weight maintainer who has now packed on 30 pounds this summer :( Nothing fits except a few new pieces and I feel awful :(

Right now I'm having a hard time planning for the holidays. I'm a huge introvert and simply do not do visiting tons of people and travelling from here to there during the holidays. It's come to light from the one family member on my side that I would visit that she didn't like our visits and that she wanted to take a break from it. I was OK at the time. A little puzzled since we are very relaxed people when it comes to the holidays ad would visit for 3 hours tops, at the day and time of her convenience. Driving through bad weather for quite a distance with presents in hands and smiles on our faces. But last night I got all these obsessive thoughts reflecting back on the conversation. I felt hurt because I mostly visited her out of obligation (like I said I am a huge introvert and would prefer to stay home) and now I'm being told that my visits are stressful. But yes please bring your presents on Boxing Day, apparently. Which isn't going to happen. We have two days to play around with and my husbands family is meeting then. By process of elimination she won't be getting a Christmas visit by choice. I am perfectly happy not going anywhere for the holidays. I've done it in the past at her request. There were other things too that I rumenated about last night from this very conversation that took place weeks ago and that initially I was fine with. I am definitely feeling a little crazy today and hope that my encounter with my doctor goes well.

CinnamonHearts!! I totally remember you, like back in May? oh PLEASE don't think that you don't qualify to visit here! you won't be bringing us down, nor will you be upsetting us if you're having a good day..we are here for you!! :hug:

that being said, I myself think that the relative was kinda rude to you!! booo to her.

I hope your visit to the doctor tomorrow is helpful!

Thank you for your kind words :) I was only able to get an appointment tomorrow. However I guess it is a step in the right direction. I know it takes time to kick in but I hope it helps me so I'm able to heal. I read recently in a book by a clinical psychologist that sometimes taking SSRI's even for a couple of months help the brain so it can heal.

Thanks for validating my feelings regarding my family member. Often I deel guilty or like I'm bad for having persistent negative thoughts.

We are a pretty fractured family due to extreme physical and psychological abuse us kids experienced. I'm pretty low/no contact with them because they live a very enmeshed lifestyle and it's the only way I've been able to live a healthy life.

It seemed important to this family member that we visit for a few hours each Christmas Day so we have always set aside that time for her.

I'm not sure why the whole conversation has come back to haunt me. I guess a few things dawned on me upon further reflection and it upset me that basically I was good enough to provide gifts and travel, but the family member wanted me to do it on a day that wouldn't ruin her Christmas.

That said I think I'm going to start meditating a few minutes each morning and night. I recall this was really soothing. I'm getting a haircut in a couple days. This has been a nice routine lately...getting a nice professional cut or trim every few months. I've also been planning my husband's Christmas gifts and am getting excited at what I have been able to come up with. Usually it's a little difficult because we typically get what we want during the year (within reason).

I think to counter my Christmas blues I'll try to come up with a few fun things for us. I'm so grateful for my husband. I feel so blessed and never felt unconditional love before him :)

Arrrrrgh!!!
 

I am about ready to cry!!! :cry: I came here a week ago and started personals. Hit one button that deleted most of my post and I had to log out. Then, I just came back and typed an incredibly long post with personals and all that's been happening with me, and when I went to preview my post, the freakin' screen went blank and I couldn't get my post back! :devil::devil::devil: I know I should write my post out in a Word document first to save it, but it seems like a hassle. But this pisses me off!!! :mad:

I am SO sorry that I've been MIA for SO very long! :( I am okay, but I am somewhat lost with what all of you are up to. I am just too tired to try to post again. Please know that I am thinking of you all and wishing you well. Sending big hugs out to the group! :hug: :grouphug:

Has anyone heard from Jessica anywhere on the site since the hurricane in Texas?!? I hope and pray that she is okay!!!

I feel awful tonight. I don't know if my blood sugar is low?? Maybe high?? My head kinda hurts. I feel nauseous.

I'm going to try to get myself a glucose meter tomorrow. I get paid on the 3rd.


I put chicken drumsticks in the oven, the whole house smells of chicken. Oh lord almighty. *turning green*

I had to open the sliding glass doors. GEEZ

Sorry for not coming back to check in, after stopping by to whinge. I think doing a thirty day reset of some sort is probably a good idea...but feels impossible now it's December. I'm feeling quite pathetic and lonely this year, and food is pretty much the only satisfaction in my life at the moment....which is extra pathetic, lol. Of course, it's not really that satisfying anyway.

I had a pretty good week this week...except today...many cokes, candy, cheese, chips...bleh.