Hello Adam, I've either suffered from depression or anxiety the better part of my life. If I don't have one, I have the other. It's so annoying, I wish I could be free from all of it. Right now I've got some anxiety problems. My boyfriend's friends are a huge trigger for me, I really don't like some of them. I have this cascade where I get nervous before seeing them, then I see them, start to feel annoyed with them and can't hide it, and it gives me so much anxiety lol. I feel like I have no control on how much I show hating spending time with them. When I'm around some of them I want to run away from them so bad. I feel bad that they bug me so much, I know they are not horrible people but some of them seem really fake or stupid to me. I try my best to hide this from my partner and resort to picking scabs, clenching my teeth, or drinking excessively. He's not stupid and he knows I'm having a hard time, but the last thing I want to do is make him give up time with his certain friends like a control freak (esp. since he doesn't see them all that often). My school also gives me terrible anxiety, they are constantly having administrative problems for my financial aid and it frankly makes me nauseated at times.
But to the past when I had my deepest depressions where between the ages of 11-14 and 18-20. When I look back at things that helped it really was for me friends and making new social connections. I would recommend trying to get out there to meet new people in whatever way you feel comfortable. I also did keep a diary, like a real one, and I wrote in it all the time. It made me feel a lot better too.
Last edited by bloominbutterflies; 05-08-2017 at 10:17 AM.
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