Need to vent...
 

Ok, so I haven't posted here in a long time. So here is a snapshot of my weight loss journey so far...

January 2016: 303 lbs.
July 2016: 218 lbs

Today: 220 lbs.

I feel like I've wasted SO much time. I shouldn't be hard on myself but it's making my depression worse. No matter what I do, I can't stop binge eating and it's keeping me at around the same weight. I exercise every single day for 2 hours. It's just my eating. I suffer from depression, anxiety and I emotionally eat. I can't seem to get that drive back that I had between Jan-July.

I feel as if I sabotage my efforts. At least the positives is that I'm healthy even though I binge eat. And I still exercise. Also, at least I know that I can maintain my weight and not gain it back. But dammit. My goal weight is around 150 or 160 lbs.

I know what I need to do, I need to meal prep and stick with it. I just wanted to vent.

Binge eating is your blood sugar level trying to remain elevated. That causes insulin to store fat. When blood sugar is up, insulin is up, and energy is being stored as fat. Carbs make you binge eat. Start binging on something carb free, and you won't binge for long.

Everyone has their own ideas when it comes to weight loss and dieting. Dieting tips such as portioning what you eat, not eating late at night, carb counting and more. All of these tips are good ideas, but some may work differently on different people. Some people have a high metabolism and some have low ones. Diets should be chosen based on personal needs and certain circumstances might be present to send you away from one diet to another.

Wow, I look at that and see you lost 80 lbs- and MAINTAINED IT. That's a victory in itself. So no, you didn't lose for the past year- but you also didn't really gain. (A 2 lb fluctuation is negligible). And plus- honestly I think taking a weight loss break sometimes is healthy. You need your body to have time to adjust, but also your mind. You need a break- dieting is hard work. But now it's time to get back to it, sounds like! But I say- be proud of what you have accomplished, because it's amazing! Maintenance is a scary thing for me- I'm afraid I'll blow it.

I hope I too had any weight loss journey :(