Hi I'm twenty years old
And am pretty sure I have an eating disorder of some kind but not sure what... I really need some help on this. I Bing on so much junk food on a daily basis usually in the evenings, i go to work come back and then I don't stop for hours until I fall asleep. On such high calorie food in talking a tub of ice cream/large bag or crisps/pizza/chocolate you name it i eat it. I'm harming my body and I don't know why. My Weight goes up and down. I go from one extreme to the other. I can go through phases of eating nothing( I mean sometimes nothing for days or bare minimal for a bit maybe weeks) then after losing about a stone or some weight in a short space of time I completely turn it around and feel like I can't help myself from eating and gain so quickly and it goes on for months. I'm embarrassed of eating In public eg. co workers and sometimes even family. Ive hidden food wrappers in public bins away from people before I've never told any one or wrote about this before but feel like my weight and whatever this problem is has taken over my life and it revolves around this horrible cycle. I think when I'm losing how good it feels and how I'll never go back to being out of control of my weight then I go through the eating phase and I feel like I want to help myself but just give in to food every time and gain so much weight so quickly. I eat when I'm not hungry and to the point of feeling sick. I've never had enough!! and feel as if everyone at work is judging me on my weight gain and I feel humiliated and ashamed. I feel like my weight controls how I feel about myself.
If anyone out their has similar issues or can tell me what the **** is wrong with me please get back to me!!