down about my weight and health
 

I have an awful lot of weight to lose and i have horrible anxiety when i think about it and worry so much about my health. But i seem stuck and can't get the courage up to start. I want to join slimming world but my screwed up brain chickens me out. I want to learn how to drive but I'm convinced i am too big to be able to move about in the seatbelt (our last car was a ford focus and i could only just do it up, our new car has loads of room though). I already walk about 50 mins per day, i want to do more but I'm fighting a losing battle against myself.
How do you win against your own brain when all it does is give you excuses???
I have got 6 sessions with a therapist, I have already had one but I don't want to go anymore. I found her completely false and I really did not like the questions. She jumped straight into childhood and family deaths. My next is tomorrow and i keep telling myself i should go even though i don't want to.

I recently started on Sertraline and this is bumming me out a bit too.

I have a 3 yr old son and i really don't want him catching my bad habits and i want to be able to take him out on my own.. And i really want to live. I don't want it to say on my death certificate that I died because i was fat!!